All Of Me

Chapter Twenty-five

We are sitting in a small restaurant, or yes, it depends on what you compare with. It's a very special appearance, they have lights strands along the walls and of course only white furniture. If Nicholas owned a restaurant in Stockholm, well, then it had looked like this. Just like his office, clear, white and professional. 

- "Are you sure you don't want something to eat?" Nicholas asks and holds the menu and then his blue eyes looks at me. 

- "I  just ate a salad with Felicia but thank you anyway." I reply, smiling. When the waiter comes to our table, Nicholas hand out the menu right away that makes the waiter almost shocked. Oh, what's wrong with him today? He is never rude. Not like this. Not in this way.

- "I want to order a caesar salad, and to my girlfriend she want some type of fruit salad and a pitcher of water and a coke" says Nicholas, sounding assertive. I wonder if that poor waiter guy even had time to write all this down. And GIRLFRIEND? What was that all about? What does he even doing? AH! This man is driving me crazy. Are we together right now? The young waiter walks away and Nicholas look at me. 

- "What!?" he says appalled and I can't help myself from shaking my head. 

- "You!" I say with a grin. While he makes me crazy, I can't help but to grin from his extremely childish behavior. I would never thought that Nicholas could be childish in his actions like this.

- "What's with me?" He says, raising his eyebrows. I bend over the table and kisses him on his lips. I look into his eyes, his big eyes towards my big eyes. "What is it with you?" he asks and flirts with me. I hear someone coughing and we turn on our heads and it is the waiter with our water and coke. I sit down immediately on my chair and I'm embarrassed. Did he watch us kissing and being all flirting to each other? The waiter put down our jug with water and he pours the coke up to half my glass, I nod as a thank you. Cause I'm just too embarrassed to even say a word. Nicholas poured some water to his glass and then takes a sip.

- "I missed you this morning" I say and Nicholas smiles.

- "I missed you too" he says and he dosen't take away his eyes from me.

- "How was your day at work?" I ask and take a sip from my glass.

- "I would rather have been at home with you and inside you," he says, and I almost spit out  all my coke. Why does he let something so filthy sounds so sexy. YES. Why didn't he do it then? Oh, Nicholas why do you like this.. The waiter comes and gives a caesar salad to Nicholas, and fruit for me. I take a fork and I start eating, how could Nicholas know that I love fruit? Maybe because it's the only thing I eat whole the time.

During this lunch, we talked about everything, he's like any human being, okay maybe not really. But apart from that he's a multimillionaire, a sex god and damn sexy, he could be just like me, or a yes any human being. He hasn't a heart of stone like he thinks he has. I would say he just have a difficulty to show his emotions. And maybe I can't change that, but at least I am aware of it. Maybe we could work on it, but I don't want him to feel that I'm trying to change him.

- "Shall we go?" Nicholas asks and interferes my thinking. 

- "Oh, I just have to go to the toilet" I say.

- "I'm waiting for you at the door," says Nicholas and I get up. I see a door that says "WC" on. I open the door and I walk in. There are several doors and it is too luxurious, given that it is a restaurant. I'll check around and my eyes stuck for the large but elegant chandelier that is placed in the middle of the great room in this restroom. But I hear how someone opens one of the toilet doors and comes out. I freeze solid on the floor. Oh, hell. My heart starts beating faster, I lose my breath. There the woman stand, the woman who many years ago made ​​my years as a young girl to hell. There she stands in the same restaurant as me. 

- "Gabriella, is that you?" She says. I don't respond. I can't talk. My whole world has stopped and I feel like I'm 14 years old again. Those times she kept telling myself how bad I really was, as she explained to all students and teachers that I had lied about everything, how she manipulated everyone. Those times she made ​​others give up on me, those times I was pushed into lockers, all those times she yelled at me because I had told the teacher. For all the times she made me feel worthless. For all those times I tried to tell myself that I will never see her again, here I am, face to face with her. She ruined my life. 

- "Gabriella, you look fantastic, great to see you," she says. I just nods to her. "What are you doing nowadays?" She continues. I have to say something. She will think that I'm stupid for real this time, but I'm not.

- "I-I studied law" I reply. Her dark eyes is burning through my skin. It's like I've met the darkness, I'm in the dark and I will not come out of it. Never. 

- "Oh, my. I never thought that about you, "she says, throwing back her black hair just like in a way she only could do. I break down, I feel the anger that I have repressed. I'm not okay with this. I been hurt but now I'm a grown woman and I can defend myself. It took me many years to defend myself and stand up for myself. Maybe it's time. Maybe I should do it now. 

- "Can you imagine? That I was able to succeed as everyone else? Strange? "I say, and now I feel the whole me is going to get real crazy, no, this is bad. Oh. But who am I to say that? I'm not crazy. I'm standing up for myself after all these years with humiliation. I couldn't care any less. 

- "Gabriella, stop," she says and looks at me with her arrogant dark eyes, I know, I know she has denied this to herself. This women, I can't with words describe how much I really hate her. For what she has done to me, and many others as well. This women isn't a friend, she is a woman that could walk over corpses. She could do anything just to make it right for herself.

- "I stop? You, you're the one who should have stopped many years ago. You have no idea how much you have damaged me and how many times you've made ​​me think 'I am worthless'? You can't imagine how bad this could have gone with your disgusting behavior. I sat down and planned my own suicide because of all your shit, you would have destroyed my family if I wasn't strong enough. Don't come here and say 'you can't imagine,' I can, I'm smart. I hope it stings in your eyes for you to see me, and if your heart is not as cold as I think it is, then I hope that you feel defeated, I have won. I have won. "I say and walk out the door. I feel so weak, so weak. My tears falls down from my cheeks and I run out through the door and I didn't notice Nicholas until I turn around.

- "Gabriella! Gabriella! What is happening? " Nicholas asks and pulls me close to him. Just at that moment I feel the heart racing, I start sweating, I lose my breath. Nicholas holding me tight and looks into my eyes, my eyes gets dark. I'm dying now. I will die and now, it's the last thing I think and I feel how I fall together. I'm dying now.