All Of Me

Chapter Twenty-three

I wake up because I never felt this thirsty in my life. But I can't get out of  the grip Nicholas has around me, he's still sleeping, I really don't want to wake him but I really need to drink some water. So, I try to wriggle myself out and I hear how he mumbles something when I finally succeed. I realize I'm naked, I need to find something that I can put on. I realize that I put my bag out there, but what if Nicholas housekeeper is out there, I really don't want to run out naked. What if she sees me and Nicholas finds out about it? It wouldn't have ended well, I don't even want to think about it. I walk into his closet, I open the door, and there. It's something that's new. I look around and I see his suits but it's clothing for women here too. When did he do this? Is it for me? Or for that bitch.. No, it can't be. I draw in one of the dark boxes and there lies lace underwear in all colors, and in my size. I remember Nicholas said he liked lace. Oh, I can't help but to smile. I put on a white lace panties. I see a gray silk robe. That's so beautiful. I put it on, and then slowly I walk out to the kitchen. It's so quiet here, there's nobody here. I take the opportunity to look around. Everything is as usual here, though it's been several weeks. I try to find the glasses in one of the kitchen cupboards, after a while I find them and I take a glass  and put it under the tap. When I filled my water glass I go out to the terrace. It's a little cold outside, but it's great views from here. I see almost the whole Stockholm from here. It's morning and a great view from here. I sit on a couch. The sofa has to be custom design because it fits here perfectly. It's in steel and is decorated with light blue pillows, blankets and a fur. I sit there, and it's cozy. Oh, just imagine waking up like this every morning. I lean my head back and just enjoying my own life for a second.

- "Is it here you're hiding?" I hear Nicholas says. It's seems to be his thing to say that when I'm always disappear from him. I open my eyes and I see Nicholas standing there in just navy blue pajama pants, they hang just perfectly on his hip. He walks towards me and sits down next to me and holding me in his arms.

- "I just needed some air." I say and I gently draw my finger along his beautiful but long arm. I feel how he pulls his fingers through my hair. I love this. 

- "Gabriella, I'm very glad you're here." he says. Oh, he's so worried. But it's something that has changed, he has or it's me, I don't really know. It was noticed yesterday when we had sex, it was different, it was not about that I dislike it, of course I love it, but he, he was different. I can't stop thinking about it. It felt like I needed him in a way I would never accept, because at the end of the day I always want to be this girl achieving her own goal and living my own life. But yesterday I made me feel that I needed him, all of him.

- "Nicholas, you must be honest with me" I say and turn around so I can look at him. He looks at me, his gaze becomes tense, there is so much emotion inside of that man, and he can't express himself, he does not know how to do it. 

- "I'm always honest with you" he says, I take his hand. I look down, how should I say this. "Please, don't leave me" he says, holding my hand tighter.

- "No, no I won't. You got all of me."I say and I kissing him lightly.

- "What am I going to be honest about then?" He asks and looks at me. I take a deep breath.

- "I just want to, please, Nicholas, you don't need to change yourself to make me stay.  As when you gave me the flowers and the necklace, you said  it yourself that you didn't do romantic acts like that. The same thing yesterday, when we had sex. Of course it was good as always, but it was completely different, I wonder what's going on? The same thing, I saw all the women clothing in your closet, what's happening? "I say and Nicholas looks down trying to find words. He is trying to express himself, then all of the sudden he looks up to me.