All Of Me

Chapter Twenty-seven

I don't understand, does this mean that this is over between us? I can't stop crying, what does this mean? Oh, what's happening? He can't leave me, not now.

- "Gabriella, please don't cry" says Nicholas and trying to wipe away my tears. I don't know what to think or what to do. It's like someone has ripped out my heart. I really don't get this. How can he just move away from here? "Gabbie, please say something!" he says.

- "Why are you moving back?" I ask and I'm still sitting on his lap. I don't want to move, I'm not ready to let him go not yet.

- "I work and live there really, I was here to clear and definitive business and now I need to go back to London. I have to move back "says Nicholas, he voice sounds calm. But I'm so frustrated. Did he really plan all this, just move back to London and leave me here? I thought we were something.

- "When were you going to tell me this?" I say, and I feel how the anxiety is slowly growing inside me.

- "Gabriella. Stop "says Nicholas and try to wipe away my tears. I can't stop, why, why does he do this to me. My legs start to shake.

- "No, you're the one to stop Nicholas.  You can't do this to us. Why didn't you tell me this before? " I say and stand up. I walk to the kitchen and holds in the countertop of the kitchen island, trying to take ten deep breaths.

- "I know this is horrible, but  I wanted to have control over this before I told you" he says and try to go closer to me.

- "Control? You can't have the control over our relationship and not over me. Nicholas, you can't do this to me. You can't leave me here, you can't. "I say. Nicholas looks at me from head to toe.

- "I want you to come with me," he says. I fall back a little, but manages to regain balance.

- "Me? You mean I'm moving to London with you? "I say, he nods. "What will my parents say?What will they think if I move in with a guy who I've known for a week to London?" I say and my voice is higher.

- "First, we have been seeing each other for four months and you're a grown woman, do what you want, don't care about what other people think. Just do what you want, Gabbie!" says Nicholas, and yes he sounds slightly annoyed. How can he do this? He just asking me to move to London? With him? What will my parents think? What will Felicia think? I walk out from the kitchen and into the bedroom and I lock the door. I hear Nicholas screaming my name. "If you don't open the door in three, I will kick it in" he continues. I'm looking for my phone it's in my bag, I'm texting Felicia;

Nicholas is moving backto London. I want to meet you outside DK STHLM  in ten minutes.

It's an emergency!

 Xx G

I take my bag and I see how the door flies up. It's Nicholas who kicked in the door, he keeps his word and that's a proof. But right now I'm so pissed off, so I, I can't even care about it. He walks toward me with a dark look. It's so dark and deep, I'm too angry to be scared of him.

- "You leave me now?" Nicholas says with anguish in his voice. I just can't be here. 

- "I need time to think. This is not something you just say yes to" I say and walk out the bedroom but Nicholas is not far behind me. 

- "Gabriella! Just be an adult about this. Don't leave me." he says and grabs my hand. I look at him for one last time. 

- "Nicholas, you should behave like an adult too. Instead of coming up with big stuff like this and ask the woman you fuck for the past few months to move to London with you, think about it. "I say and walk out. The door slams. I walk to the elevator, and I break down. 

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I stand outside the bar DK STHLM. It's not so much people here at the moment. I see Felicia standing there. I throw mysel over her and hug her.

- "Oh, Gabriella, how are you?" She says and holding me tight in her embraces.

- "I do need a drink" I say, she laugh at me first but she knows that. A glass of wine can always help with a broken heart. We walk into the bar, it's dark, with purple decorations, and dark lighting. It's really modern, It doesn't feel like a bar in Stockholm, it's different. We put ourselves in a purple couch and right away a nice waiter take our orders.

- "We'll have two glasses of white wine and six shots" I say and Felicia has never gaped that big at me in her life. The sleek waiter write down and walks away.

- "Gabriella, if you feel bad, you know, drinking is not a good option." she says and staring at me. I laugh out loud.

- "Trust me, I need it to survive this shit day" I say and put my bag on the table and take off my black trench coat, it's always a bit cooler in the evening during the summer in Sweden. I have the white dress I had on me during the night I met Nicholas's parents, and just when I remember that moment I start to cry. Oh, no. Stop it G.

- "But, Gabriella," says Felicia and hugs me. The waiter brings our drinks and shots to our table. I wipe off my tears and take three shots, and I say 'cheers' to myself, and I drink all the three shots right away. I regret that I took this three shots less in a minute. I'm not the biggest fan of alcohol. I already feel how my head starting to spin.

- "Gabriella tell me, why is he moving to London? So suddenly?"  Felicia asks and drink from her wine glass. I take a light sigh.

- "He must go back because they need him in London, he wants to go home. He asked me to go with him thought.."I say and take my wine glass.

- "What? What did you say? Did you say yes? " Felicia asks and she almost gets shocked. I look around and then at her.

- "No, I said nothing. What do you think my parents would have thought about that? I had to leave everything here, family, friends and you "I say. It broke my heart to even think about that. I will have to leave Felicia. We have been so close, and if I move to London what if we lose that contact.

- "Fuck them! Can't you just do as you please, for once? " says Felicia. Oh, she sounds just like Nicholas. Why don't he ask her to move to London. My phone rings, I look at it and it's Nicholas, I turn off my phone. I take a sip of my wine glass. Oh, I really hate this day. Why should everything just go to hell at the same day, but my thoughts gets disturbed when I see a tall man walking towards me, I don't recognize him, what, huh. But suddenly I realize who it is. I sit there frozen to the couch. Damn, damn, do not let this be true. The man walks towards me, shit. Fuck me. This is more than just a shitty fucking day.