Love Ash (Raphael x Reader TMNT fanfiction) [CANCELLED]

An unusual feeling

Y/N's P.O.V.

Lunch time finished as usual, except that this time I've spent it with that new guy. Seriously, that guy has something I've never noticed before around other guys. Was it because he has a good sense of humor? Or cause he's just simply HOOOOT-
*cough* I mean, not hot! Just...err, handsome. Yeah..handsome.

Nevermind. I entered the classroom of the following class I had after the lunch break. This class, at least, wasn't as boring as the other classes I had today. The school bell rang as I was the first one who exited the classroom. I've walked through the school hallway buried into my thoughts. And then, I saw him.

He was in front of his new locker, probably checking it out or just putting his stuff into it. He probably felt my prescence as he turned away and looked at me to which I smiled unusually.

Why does he make me feel this way? It's kind of a way you don't feel every day, you know? Like, why do I have a tingly feeling around my chest or stomach? Could it be...NOPE! Na-ah! Not this time (Y/N), you already have TOO much stress in your life! Quit it, it's not a big deal anyways. He smirked as usual. I rolled my eyes. He then proceeded to walk to another classroom as I went into one of the empty ones to practice. Nobody was in there as well as around the classroom. I grabbed my guitar that was with me and opened it's case.

My guitar wasn't really a special one, it was a regular one you can buy everywhere. But what's special about it is that in the down right corner of it is my own signature engraved into it. I got it as a present from my sister. I took the guitar and placed it into my hands, holding it tightly and placing my fingers onto the string. Moving them, I was making a melody. I started...

(Christina Perri - Human, such a great song, pls listen to it)

(Y/N)

"I can hold my breath,
I can bite my tongue,
I can stay awake for days if that's what you want,
Be your number one...

I can do it,
I can do it,
I can do it...

But I'm only human,
And I bleed when I fall down,
I'm only human,
And I crash and I break down,
Your words in my head,
Knives in my heart,

You build me up and then I fall apart,
Cause I'm only human...

I can turn it on,
Be a good machine,
I can hold the weight of worlds if that's what you need,
Be your everything.

I can do it,
I can do it,
I'll get through it,

But I'm only human,
And I bleed when I fall down,
I'm only human,
And I crash and I break down,
Your words in my head,
Knives in my heart,

You build me up and then I fall apart,
Cause I'm only human...

I'm only human,
I'm only human,
Just a little human!

I can take so much,
Until I've had enough...

Cause I'm only human,
And I bleed when I fall down,
I'm only human,
And I crash and I break down,
Your words in my head,
Knives in my heart,

You build me up and then I fall apart,
Cause I'm only human..."

I finished singing one of my favorite songs I've heard so far. Sometimes I express myself and my mood through singing or playing instruments. It makes me forget my worries and my sorrows, also pain. Music has also taught me many valuable lessons about life and exsistance, and I'm grateful that I'm able to proceed making this kind of art and beauty. It's like another home of mine.

I've also written many songs but I've been too scared to actually play them out to somebody. *sigh* when will this fear disappear?

"That was wonderful, (Y/N)!!!"

I've heard a female voice speaking in an excited tone. I turned around to see who it was. It's one of my best friends Sabine. I smiled thankfully at her as I placed my guitar back into it's case.

"Ah, shut up, it's not even that great.."

I smirked at her as usual. Sabine is actually one of those people who has been there to protect me and to understand me when I open up to her. She's there to listen to me, understand me, accept me for who I am and make me laugh; everything you need in a friend. She has never betrayed me and I can never picture her doing that, not even in my wildest dreams. It's just not like her. She's mostly happy about everything! I rarely see her down or sad, but whenever she's not smiling, she's not ok. I feel it.

"Are you kidding?! Your voice is spectacularly super duper awesome!!! What are you talking about?!"

Did I mention that she also overreacts most of the time?

I sighed giving up.

"Alright, alright, you win."

I chuckled being half sarcastic.

"I assure you girl, this performance is gonna be the best one yet! And with your voice on stage, it'll be even better!"

I hate the thought of it. I don't like to sing in front of people, idk, I'm mostly anxious when it comes to public speeches or events, and singing is a whole another level! I smiled at Sabine kindly, still being unsure.

"Yeah...probs."

"Don't be like that, say 'it WILL be good and I MEAN it!!!', right now!"

I sighed irritated.

"...it will be good and I mean it."

I said not even listening to myself as i talk. I don't like to think that I'm better than everyone (I'm better sometimes but still pffft) and as I said, I don't like even standing on a stage in front of people watching my every move. It's so uncomfortable. Some people even call the stage their home! Like- how?!

"Good girl!!!"

Sabine added happily to which I smiled and got up taking my guitar with me. I greeted her as I proceeded to walk to my next class which was also the last one of the day, Biology.