Love Ash (Raphael x Reader TMNT fanfiction) [CANCELLED]

If I like him...

Finally the classes ended and I can go home. The thought of that Raph guy didn't escape my head. I just don't get it...Why am I feeling this way? This isn't me! Ugh, what am I talking about, I already have enough bullshit in my life. The last thing I need is him as a cherry on top.

I sighed as I returned home with Sabine who was walking with me. Sabine lives some houses apart from mine and that's actually a nice thing, especially cause we can walk to school together and meet after classes to hang out.

Another one of our silly, yet unforgettable conversations has ended as I unlocked the doors of my apartment and hurried inside. I put my school bag down as I saw that dirty bowl in the sink I left early this morning. I sighed.

"Damn, sometimes I need to tidy things up a bit."

But that's just how it is. Since I live alone I can't always think about everything and make sure I don't forget something. School is already making enough problems for me, including the upcoming performance. Gosh, I truly hope I'll handle the anxiety on that stage. It already makes me cringe. I hope Sabine is right, but then again she always tells me these positive things that actually sometimes end up being false. Still... This performance is a really big thing for me and Sabine so far is the only one who supports me. Literally, anytime I'm doing something important or I'm down, she'll always, like ALWAYS be, at least, that one person who'll support me. I have to thank her...really.

Those thoughts raced through my mind as I've realized I've been washing this bowl for quite some time now. I put the bowl next to the sink as I took my bag and headed towards my room. I slipped my bag open as I've put the books I've brought with me today and thrown the rest of the things I didn't need to the side. I've turned on my lamp that was on the table of my room as I began to do my homework and study. The whole time the book was in my hands and as I've tried to at least remember one sentence of the lesson I was studying, that stupid jerk was in my head again.

"AAAGH! WHY?! JUST FRICKING LEAVE ME ALONE OK?! THAT NICKNAME WAS JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER, FUCK LOVE, FUCK FRIENDSHIP JUST FUCKING STUDY!!!"

I groaned as I've gotten stressed out again. I took a deep breath and figured I need a break. I sighed as I looked at my phone that was next to my desk. I took it and messaged Sabine.

Me: Gurl? U there?

SabineFanGirl: Yep!! What do u need, (Y/N)?

Me: U home? I mean, if you'd like to hang out that'd be pretty amazin'.

SabineFanGirl: I don't like that dot at the end of the sentence. U ok, dear?

Me: I'll tell ya. Just answer my question first.

SabineFanGirl: @ ur gate for 5 mins

Our conversation ended and I put my phone back in it's previous position as both of my hand covered my face. I deeply sighed and looked around my room.

"Fuck school. I'll study later."

I got up from my uncomfortable chair (I'll get a new one but now I'm pretty lazy) as headed towards the bathroom. I splashed some cold water into my face as I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I'm a total mess. Grr..what did that Raph saw in me anyways?...Wait WHAT AM I SAYING?! It's not like he likes me back or anything!!! But...the main question here is if I like him. Difficult decisions, difficult decisions.

I dried my face off with a towel as I heard a knock on my doors. Must be Sabine. I opened them up and she came in rushing. She quickly hugged me tightly at the entrance of my apartment.

And let me tell you, when Sabine has her moments, she can give ya the tightest hugs you'll ever get. And this hug right here is exactly one of those hugs.

I've been losing my breath since she hugged me so fricking tight like she usually does, but she has enough mercy to let go when needed.

"Tell me everything."

I see she suspected my behavior, but I'll just try to brush it off and play cool.

"What do ya mean?"

"You know EXACTLY what I mean (Y/N)."

I rolled my eyes. Oh boy, here comes one of her lectures again. Why, God? Whyyyy???

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Hey guys, sorry that this chapter is a lot shorter than other ones, it's late and it's the only time I have a chance to at least TRY to sneak my phone at night. I'm busy with school mostly, then comes other business and since October started, more and more things are comin', like exams and other stuff I don't have the nerves to talk about.
Anyways, hope ya liked this part, even tho it's not as much. I'll try to be more active but that's just the main question now. Also sorry if I misspelled some stuff, English ain't my mother language, but I'll try my best.
Good night/day to y'all and I love ya, piece bagels! ✌💕