Love Ash (Raphael x Reader TMNT fanfiction) [CANCELLED]

Let's distract, shall we?

(Y/N)'s P.O.V.

I let out a chuckle - "Don't joke around like that, silly. It's me, (Y/N)! Did Shredder hit your head real hard or something?"

"Well whoever you are, ya better let me sleep now." - Raphael spoke as he turned to the other side, making me face his shell - "See ya."

What was that all about? It can't be what I think it is, can it? No, no I'm overthinking; after some rest he'll be good as new...

"R-Right, have a good rest then." - I said as I watched him fall asleep, proceeding to leave the lab afterwards. I close the door silently, not wanting to make any sound that might disturb him, slowly walking away as my thoughts ran through my empty, yet a full mind.

I guess he just wanted to tease me? Yeah, he does that all the time! I guess that was supposed to be a funny joke of some sort? I shook my head denying my own theory. He just needs some rest now (Y/N), so stop giving this a second thought. You know well how much Raph loves you, don't you? Well, of course I do! I guess I'm the problem here since nobody is suspecting a thing. I just overthink a lot. Yeah, yeah that's the case. We all had a rough week so I guess all of this seems pretty normal, doesn't it? Gosh, for how long will this last and is it real that after every theory I come up with, there is always something negative following it? I really need to calm down for God's sake.

After leaving Donatello's laboratory, I have no idea what to do next or even where to go. Should I go home? I'm pretty sure Raph doesn't wanna see me...

No, here I go with my useless ovethinking again! Ugh, mind stop torturing me.

But really, the question remains; what can I really do? But I guess I can just, I don't know, hang out with the boys for a while before heading home. But do I really want that? Oof, I'm just restarting to think negatively about the whole situation again. But I can't help it. It's getting the best of me and I hate it! Agh!

"You okay, dudette?" - The little orange goofball asked me as I snap out of it. Little did I know, he was sitting in front of the TV playing videogames as I walked in. He held his game on a pause as he turned to speak.

"I must've spaced out again, huh?"

"Girl, you've been starring at the ground this entire time!" - Even if speaking in a funny tone, his eyes showed concern - "What's on your mind now? Raaaphie?~"

"Maybe yes, maybe not." - I cross my arms looking to the side - "I just wonder why he said that."

Mikey got up - "Said what? He told you something when we left? Oh, oh, tell me!" - He begged like a little child as I sigh.

"He didn't recognize me. He asked who I was and looked at me like if I was a random stranger who came out of nowhere. I don't know, maybe it's just me."

"You're confusing me." - He said to me - "Why in the whole sewers would he ask that?" - He let out a gasp - "Does he not remember you?"

"Nonsense!" - I cover my mouth as I realize how loud I was speaking - "Sorry Mike, but I find it hard to believe that the Shredder actually made him forget about one of us.  He's gonna be just fine aside from his physical wounds."

"If you say so, although there's a possibility."

"I don't wanna think about that now."

"Then what are you gonna do?" - He said sitting back on his previous position.

I quiet down before speaking up again - "I was thinking to hang out with you guys while we wait" - I give the back of my neck a rub - "But I guess it ain't the time for that..."

"I thought you were never gonna ask!" - Patting the ground beside him, he replied - "Sit here, and have this." - He held up a second player joystick in front of me, waving it from side to side.

"Mikey, I'm not sure-"

"Pleeease? Trust me, it'll distract you! In fact, I don't think you're ever gonna be able to beat my record." - The young turtle spoke teasingly, showing a grin of his, until I didn't smile in return, sitting beside him, grabbing the joystick. In the most unexpected way, I was distracted and soon relieved.

My thoughts seemed to sink away at each joyful screech Mikey made; he certainly made the game much more interesting. I had a pretty good laugh as well. I seemed to forget that the time flies by when you don't think about it, as the final match of the game was over, with the clear results that Mikey has beaten me.

"Ha! Told ya you can't beat me!" - Speaking with pride he grinned, to which I replied - "That's because I went easy on you, duh."

"No need to make up excuses now. I know how good I am, and let me tell you, I'm the best of the best."

"Uhuh, I wonder where you got that idea from."

"Facts sis, facts." - To that, I rolled my eyes with a smile, letting him cherish his glory before I got up.

"Alright, I guess that was enough for today. I better get going."

"Wait, why don't you spend some days here? At least until we're sure that Raph's fine."

"I don't know if the guys are gonna be fine with that." -  I sigh - "Besides, I think I annoyed him too much already."

"Dude, he won't stop bragging about you. Seriously! You're all that's on his mind. He also has a picture of you. Idefinetelydidn'tsneakthroughhist-phonetofindthatout." - He faked a cough.

"You really think so?"

"No, I KNOW so!"

"Hm..." - I smiled before letting out a sigh - "Alright. But I still need to ask Leo for permission."

"Yeah boi!" - Yelled the orange-masked turtle in joy - "Sleepover time!

"If Leo allows it." - I add.

"...If Leo allows it."

(How's it goin, Bagels? Long time no see.
Tbh I'm not even sure in which direction this story is goin, but I guess I'll figure somethin out. I do have a few ideas on my mind, but I'll need a proper way to fit them all. Ya'll can still write down your ideas in the comments or DMs. Anyway, how's life treatin ya'll? Corona still around? (Here is not as much, but people still have to wear masks around.)
I'd like to apologize for my constant abscence, but I guess this became a standard thing now ^^'. I keep lookin through the comment section and I keep seein people askin me to update asap, but like I said, I'm not really sure where to go with this story. Ya'll can still say if there is somethin you don't like about it or a question that troubles you about it. I'd love to hear your guys' opinions.
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