As much I want to give in and fuck every attractive man (and sometimes woman) I encounter, I refuse to lose my self control and dignity.
I feel like I was borderline nymph the previous years. Had to be lol. Mildly promiscuous as my friend would say!
I was curious and sex was a thing that has so many things to unfold and experience, I would rather not [yet]. Like I never had my backend licked [yet]. Haven't had sex with two men [yet]. Haven't watched a bizarre porn video that has made me cum [yet again].
My hope is that whenever you read this that you will be (or already) comfortable with you sexuality and kinks like you just read mine. Maybe I should make another chapter for sex tips and advice. But being comfortable with yourself and desires makes everything lively. The sex, your emotions, your relationship, possibly your life.
However, I've been celibate for a year and 4 months. I was suppose to remain a virgin but high school me was emotional-driven (reckless if I'm being honest). It was something my mom threw on me so I was like fuck her, Ima have sex just because. Small detour but I'm back, baby! I'm doing it for me for now. I want a non-domestic relationship and one without me being strung out by toxic penis.
Now you read the beginning of this.. this has been hard as fuck.
It's been a rough journey. I had almost had a slip up but I'm still holding on. I wish I had girl-friends to talk about this stuff. Or just to know I'm not the only one doing this because people be quick to bash me for what I'm doing with my body.
How are y'all's sex lives? Active, celibate, no experience whatsoever, dry season, no seasons for my asexual homies.
Changes, problems, desires, daydreams— these damn day dreams be something serious. I'm pretty sure I had sex with one of the professors in my head like three times already. If only getting nose bleeds when being turned on was a real thing. I would be SO fucked.
