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Hate Yourself

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When Krissy woke from a nap she didn't remember taking, she realized she was wet. She knew why right away and dreaded Helena's reaction.

She opened her eyes and she found Helena standing over her with a disappointed frown. Krissy flinched in response.

"You wet the bed again, Ms. Krissy." She pointed out unnecessarily. "I told you to tell me if you had to go to the bathroom!" Krissy wouldn't have said anything even if she could. "I told you I would make you sit in it and I meant that." The woman shook her head. "Come on," She pulled Krissy up to a siting position with an hand underneath her arm pit before placing a tray filled with Salmon and wild grains, "eat."

Krissy just stared at the food. She wasn't hungry, she hadn't been hungry in a long time. She wished she could cook her own food just to make sure...

"Please don't start this today, Ms. Krissy." Said the woman. "You better eat." When Krissy made no move to take the fork sitting next to the plate the woman's hand that was still wrapped around Krissy's bone like arm tightened. Krissy winced and shied away weakly.

"N-no" she called weakly.

Helena made a sound of frustration. "Do you want me to call him and tell him you're not eating again? That's exactly what it is you want, isn't it? Attention from him." The woman berated. "Have you not caused him enough trouble already? Mostro should not have to worry over you on top of everything else!" The woman continued with a sharp, accusing tone. "I saw you had contacted him earlier..." Krissy quickly looked around for her tablet, finding it gone. She looked sharply back up at the woman. "You were trying to make him come see you, correct? Did you have any idea that he had an important job today, one where he could have lost his life? No? You were to busy attempting to guilt him into coming to see you! Do you have no shame, Ms. Krissy? Mostro is a very important man!"

Krissy's eyes widened. Bryce could have lost his life today? She frowned down at the food in her lap. She realized her little antic earlier could have distracted him terribly and then he would have gotten hurt because of her. Her hands balled into fists beside her.

She didn't want anyone else to get hurt because of her. Especially not Bryce.

"Now? Are you going to eat or am I going to have to bother Mostro with more pointless distractions?"

Krissy swallowed her tears and ignored how her stomach churned. She forced herself to eat the food.

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Krissy's thighs itched because of the dry urine clinging to her skin. The blanket over her and the sheet below her had long since cooled before drying stiff around her. It's smell was eye watering and shame inducing.

Helena had left her after her dinner and hadn't returned. She had been gone for hours now, leaving her to sit in her own filth.

She could see the bathroom from where she sat and she wanted more than anything to get there and clean herself. But she couldn't move, not when she remembered how it felt to fall so hard her teeth vibrated, not when there wasn't a therapist of even Helena there to help her to her feet, not when she was afraid.

The sun was just starting to peek through the blinds over her window. Had she really sat in her own filth for this long?

Krissy looked at the floor from where she sat. It was so far away and the bathroom was even further. A phantom pain had started to throb throughout Krissy's body, one of the ones she felt ever since she had awakened. It made tears spring to her eyes, so she shut them tightly.