Mistake

I Love You

My mind was fully blank. Tears rolled down from my eyes as I hugged Liz with my one arm, trying my best to not let out any sobs. I felt myself shaking.

"Why Liz? Why? I should have waited for him to explain than making assumptions. He did this all for me! For me!"

Krist loved me soo much that he sacrificed his own life to save me. I didn't see his undying love for me. I questioned his love for me. I shouldn't have done that.

"No, Singto. Don't say that. You didn't do anything wrong. No one did anything wrong. The circumstances made you guys feel like this and take decisions by yourself. You should not blame yourself, Singto," Liz patted my back as she spoke.

I closed my eyes tight. He had to go through all these turmoil by himself.

I judged him. I blamed him for not being sincere to me. I blamed him for not loving me enough. I blamed him for even entering into my life.

And the end, it was me who was wrong. Krist did so much for me. He tried to protect me and make my life much easier.

"I...I...I love him, Liz. I don't know how to say it to him. I acted all these days because I thought he hated me even when he showered me with attention and care. The day he broke up with me repeated up in my mind every single time he was near me."

I pulled off from Liz and wiped my tears as I leaned against the pillow.

"Tell him you love him, Singto. Just go and tell him. He doesn't want to push you to do so, but you shouldn't wait long for it too. Don't doubt yourself, Singto. You are more than want someone could deserve."

Liz smiled softly at me and I nodded my head, mirroring her expression.

"Call me when you want, Singto. You still have time to think."

I sighed as I nodded my head.

"Liz, can you help me sit on the wheelchair?"

Liz chuckled at my pleading expression before she helped me stand up and sit on the wheelchair.

Liz wheeled me to the window and left me alone. I took a deep breath as I looked out of the window.

Looking back, Krist is the only reason why I'm still alive. Even though loving him was an unexpected part of my life.

My life was fully dedicated to my friends and the children in the orphanage I grew up in. I took part-time jobs to just buy toffees to those children who meant a lot to me and along with that paid my rent.

Krist was the most popular guy in the university. He was always surrounded by people. Well, you can't blame others. He was extremely handsome and charming.

I was more than surprised when one day Krist came towards the bench I and New were sitting and talked with me to join his band team as a co-singer with him.

I didn't know he knew that I could sing. After all, I have only sung a song once on the fresher's day. That too, it has been one year since then. I didn't even notice his presence there because he was practicing with his band.

His band was the most popular among the university. He was the drummer and at the same time a lead singer of the band. Anyone who saw their performance would yearn for more.

From that day onwards we grew closer. Closer as such you couldn't rest your mind in peace without the thoughts of him.

I didn't know when my feelings started to grow for him. And I was afraid of what others will think about me. I'm an orphan,I have no one in my life. While Krist was the heir of the most famous company in Thailand. He was a good son to his father and mother. He has everything that I don't have. I didn't want to risk his life.