She's a keeper

34

Kingsley's Perspective

A day in my life is crazy. Im getting close though, soon. We'll actually be set for life. I've put in so much work since I've dropped out of Uni. I've opened up 2 accounts. One in Vianni's name and another in Nelli's name. I've been putting in money weekly. I'm setting them up from now because I know mum definitely didn't. What a crack fiend. She's made me lose out on alot of money, a proper childhood, a dad. She's just a useless mum.

I didnt ever think my life would be like this. The things I've seen and gone through have changed me. I always knew I'd protect my family with my whole heart but I didnt know I'd end up like this. It was good when dad was around. He made sure we were patterned. I dont remember much about when I was an only child, I remember when Glo came about tho. I was gassed. He was gonna be my best friend from the star and that he was, gay ahliee yh I know. It was after Glo was born that mum suffered the most from depression. I think thats when she started... uno. I remember when Nelli came about. It was like it was yesterday. I was 6 and Glory was 3. Mum was in the house screamingggg. We didnt know what to do. This was when dad started to become more absent so he wasnt even around. I called the ambulance, I was so proud of myself.  I gave them the address and everything. Except, I didnt know what mums name was so I just called her mum.  When we got to the hospital, they let me and Glo play on the ps2. We were pumped because we never had one.  Then we fell asleep, we woke up to a little sister. Quinelle Millian. It was the happiest dad looked in years. Mum just looked happy but there was something about her... When we got home everything was different . Dad loved Nelli with his whole heart. Its like mum was jealous, but she was just a baby. Mum started losing so much weight after that and Dad would literally only show up every once in a while after Nelli turned 1. Mum was so skinny we barely even noticed she was pregnant. V was so small when he was born. He was premature. It was literally God that saved him. What I didnt find out till later was when mum was pregnant she was doing drugs, like heavy. They even think she was trying to kill him without getting an abortion. After that things went DOWNHILL. As in Dad was around but not for long V was only just learning to crawl when he left, it was sad. There were days we  would sleep on empty stomachs because mum wasted our child benefits on whatever drug she could get her hands on. Yeah we'd make V bottles, it was the easiest thing to keep him full because all he drank was milk. It wasnt enough for Nelli because she needed more than milk, Glory needed proper food but even though he was only 4 he was kind of understanding? I used to keep my lunch in my book bag from school so did Glory, so that we could eat it at home.

We had an aunty, mums half sister. Her name was Jules. I thank God for that woman. If she was still alive today... I'd make sure she'd never have to work again. I made sure she had the best send off possible. She came all the way from Manchester to see mum once, she never left after that. She saw how we suffered , she patterned us. There was no helping mum at this point she was just gone forever. She wouldnt even care that our aunty had us. She has a big role in the reason that Nelli and V are so close. She taught us life lessons, morals and the value of family. When I turned 15 , aunty had to fly back to Manchester for a couple weeks to look after her mum who was sick with cancer. She sadly passed away and aunty was struggling to make ends meet cos she had was looking after us but not getting any type of support from the government, she worked a basic 9-5, she payed for a 2 bedroom apartment in Barking and she now had a funeral to pay for. She did everything on her own, not because anyone ask but because she had a good heart. I felt bad so I tried to get a job but there wasnt much I could do at 15 so I started shotting. Tion was already a likkle bad breed from the day I met him and we became friends. He put me on. My aunty nearly killed me when she found out I was shotting. She had never hit any of us but on that day she fucked me up. She was a little woman but she had a hefty left hook. I completely understood where she was coming from. As much as she didnt want to she allowed me just for a small period of time so I could help with stuff at home. Other than minor struggles here and there we  were in good hands until I turned 17, Glo was 14, Nelli just turnt 12 and V was 10.

It was November 22nd 2011. I waited impatiently by the door for Aunty to get back. She never turned up on that day. That was the day she died... Hit and run. It was never looked into. Its like she anticipated her death. She left us all she had. We had to go back to living with mum. Life just flopped. Then I went to...

A story for another day. From then on I just looked after my siblings. I didn't really get along with mum, nobody did. Her and Nelli were the worst as in the would scrap. Nelli would only restrain her but mum would swing and that. She had that good nitty strength.

I chuckled to myself, lifes crazy. I parked my car and went into Mcdonald's. Im too fried to be at the drive thru

You'll never guess who I bumped into. He was with 2 girls. I stepped in front of him in the line.

"urm what is this man doing, Squeeze tell him move" some lightskinned girl beside him said.

"Ay bake off its not that deep" He kissed his teeth. I deeped it. That must be his new girlfriend its deffo not the other girl she's a stud.

I turned around and looked at him.

"Is this Nelli's replacement" I chuckled. He looked like he wanted to laugh but he nodded.

"Who's Nelli? That Q milli girl?!" She asked while waving her hand in his face.

"Calm down man" He said while moving her hands. Her stud friend stood there shaking her head.

"So happy Nelli was never with this ratchet bullshit." I laughed just before ordering my food.

"See this Nelli girl you're never seeing her again. Im sick of hearing her fucking name. I might have to fuck her up when I see her" She was screaming behind me, I had to pause my order. I turned around and Emmanuel looked at me like he knew she just fucked up

"Ay Squeeze I beg tell your linkage what happens when you try my sister. I will put a hole inher stomach and call that a belly piercing. Then I'll come for you again and we already know whats gonna go on there"

I saw him get abit uneasy.

"Don't take chat from him squeeze. Do him in right now" She shouted, her voice is really jarring. I just wanna headbutt her one time.

"Justine relax. Its not everyday volts. It doesnt sound like this man is joking" The stud finally spoke up. I turned back around to order my food. I hate girls man.

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Nelli's perspective

Back to college today.  I can't wait to see my guys. I missed them so much and I wanna see how settled the 1st years got because I run the college.

Emmanuel pulled up to the colly, and I jumped out.

Me- See you here at 4:30 okay?

Emmanuel- Have a good day yeah, see you later

I nodded before jogging into my college. This system is actually so shit all you do is walk in with your lanyard round your neck. Its so easy to sneak people in here. They know my fac already so I just bopped in. The street (the main part of my college). Feels like home as much as I hate this nasty college.

I waited by the lockers for Jas who was taking her sweet time.

"Q MILLI BABY!!" I heard a deep voice from behind me call. I turned around and it was Cj. I lightl jogged up to him and jumped onto him.

"CEEEJAAYY!!" I shouted while he spun me around in a circle.

He threw me over his shoulder and ran around screaming "my bestfriends back in colly" like a happy little kid. I guess we made a big scene cos I wont lie I clocked a couple people holding their phones up. Hella whispers and that "whos that, whos that" He put me down and I had to catch myself before I fell. When my head stopped spinning. I clocked her.

Justine goes to my college? Oh isnt this year gonna be fun