Keep my Secret (pearlmethyst fanfic)

2. Truth

Amethyst PoV

I need to tell someone.

So... who?

I could tell Garnet... but she already knows. She's got future vision. That and she... doesn't understand. She's never had a crush, because she's always together.

She's made of love.

I could tell Bismuth, but she doesn't have a crush on anyone... so she wouldn't understand either.

There's always Peridot... and I'm pretty sure she has the hots for Lapis... but she isn't too great with human emotions, and I don't know what her big mouth would blather about it.

Which leaves me with two other options, and neither of them are great.

Connie could work... buuuuuuuut we're not too close, and it'd be weird to tell Steven's girlfriend that I'm in love with her sword fighting teacher. Do you see the problem now?

Which only leaves...

UGH, Steeeeveeeeeeeen...

Steven can't keep secrets. That means if I tell him... well, he'd probably tell Pearl by accident. 

And THAT would crush me.

But... what other choice do I have?

I was about to leave... and then I remembered that Pearl didn't know I was watching her.

I quietly got off of Steven's bed and snuck over to the door, opening it without making a sound and closing it with the same quietness.

I swiftly swept towards the beach and saw Steven and Connie sharing a small smooch, making me feel even more awkward about bringing this up.

But again, I'm in a tight situation here... and I really wanna go out with Pearl.

And not telling people is hurting me, so let's go with the better option here, right?

"Hey, Ste-man. Hey Connie."

The two pull away, blushing pretty hard.

"H-hey, Amethyst," Steven says awkwardly. 

"Did you, um... need something?"

"Yeah, actually, um, I kinda need to talk to you right now. Badly. In private. No offense, Connie, but this is... kind of super personal."

"None taken."

Connie is super nice and it's hard to offend her. No wonder Steven loves her so much. Lucky kid.

Connie, being super cool, gets right up and goes in Steven's house, giving us privacy.

"So what's up, Amethyst?"

"Well... I need to tell you something that I... really think I need to get off my chest."

"Alright. Hit me with it."

"Well... it's kind of a secret. You can't tell anybody, ok? Especially not Pearl."

"Um, why not Pearl? Did you, like, eat something you'd get in a lot of trouble for?"

See now why this plan sucked?

"Well um... see... I... uh..."

Dang it, I'm stammering! I just need to get it out!

"I-I'm... I'm in love with Pearl!"

There we go.

Steven's expression is a little stunned, like he didn't expect me to say that. But whatever, I guess that makes sense.

I'm very good at hiding my emotions towards people, at least until they come barreling out of me.

Which surprisingly hasn't happened until now.

"I-I think she's really pretty and sweet and graceful and I'm literally a pile of garbage compared to her, and I've liked her for a really long time but never told anyone because I'm too scared, and, and-"

"Amethyst. Calm down. It's... gonna be okay. I know how you feel. I used to feel that way about Connie. It's totally normal. But... you're not garbage, okay? At least don't think that."

He smiled at me. 

I've told someone.

And he's got my back, even if he does suck at secrets and he can be a little turd sometimes.

Steven knows and he's got my back.

Steven's right.

I'll be okay.