His Threats - Ugly Truth ☑

chapter 31

>>>>chapter 31

She then sip a wine in her glass.

"I know your wondering why im telling  you this.." She looked at me with a hurt expression

"The father of my child ,Manuel Phoenix is the only man i loved for how many years .Noon simpleng hi nya lang kontento na ako ...kasi alam ko i cant be more for him,cause he already had a wife ,and its Louis's mother Lizzy,Lizzy and i were friends, like siblings ,pareho kaming models sa iisang product which is the beauty cream of julia ,its funny ,when i found out na she is the fiance of manuel,i know what i did was wrong i took advantage to the drunk man beside me ,but i love him ,and he is my happiness ,kaya ginawa ko ang hindi dapat ,i thought that when something happens between  us ,he will left lizxy,but no im wrong ,im wrong again,he still choose lizzy over me ,i rise my child on my own,he gives me financial needs but i throw all his money away ,but my son needs a father kaya hinayaan ko syang lumapit sa anak ko .Janice" she held my hand and look at my eyes ..

She called me janice ,yeah right she knows me back when i was 5.

"My son loves you so much,ive been a bitch back then,what i did is wrong ,and my son is my only gem in my life ,i dont want him to get the karma i deserve,the mistake i made has nothing to do with him .I can see it in your eyes na you dont feel the same way as what my son feels for you.And i cant afford seeing my child, my only son in pain becuase the woman he loves cant love him back,just like as what i have experienced ,the man i love doesn't love me back.Please janice dont hurt my son"

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"Please janice dont hurt my son "

It keeps on repeating on my mind ..nandito kami ngayon sa kotse ni jani..ihahatid na daw niya ako kasi baka may iba pang sasabihin na hindi kaaya aya ang mommy niya..

Not in being rude but ,i thank him for that ,kasi parang nakokonsensya ako sa tuwing tinitingnan ko ang malulungkot na mata ng mama ni jani ..she really is hurt .

And i know the pain of yesterday doesn't heal that easy every time you face tomorrow ,and the day after the day.

Alam kong hindi ako dapat nagpanggap ,i should have told her na Hindi na si jani ang mahal ko ...si Louis na.yeah right the man who prefer pretty ladies and your not one of those .

"Jani .. Sorry" bulong ko ..pero sapat na para mapalingon sya and i know he heard me.

"Its ok,lets just pretend na you didnt meet Louis, its just you and me like in our high school days ..can we?even just for a week?" Tanong niya.Na may bahid ng lungkot.

Tiningnan ko sya ...at nagsisisi ako na tingnan sya..kasi may isang butil ng luha ang tumulo mula sa pisngi niya.I can feel my heart suddenly just broke .It hurts to see someone crying because of you.

Pupunasan ko na sana ang luha niya nang unahan niya ako .

"Sorry for that..i just...i just loved you very much" sabi niya at tiningnan ako ,with a teary and sad eyes .Then he smiled .

Iniwas ko agad ang tingin ko sa kaniya .Those smiles .Those are the smiles i always wanted to see back then..para akong nasa langit sa tuwing nakikita ko syang ngumingiti ,ang mga ngiting yun kasi ,it is full of pure happiness .Pero ngayon ,its not that what i see at all .It's full of sadness and sympathy, its full of pain and i want to erase it.Pero panu?kung ako mismo nasasaktan?kung ako mismo may problema?

Huminto na ang sasakyan at pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto ..nasa bahay ko na pala ako.

Agad ko syang hinarap pagkababa ko.

"Salamat jani." Sabi ko at nginitian sya.

"No,thank you kasi ngumiti ka" agad nawala ang ngiti ko.

"Sorry,jani" sabi ko habang nakayuko

"No.its fine alam ko naman eh,i just want to be with you even just for a week,ako nag suggest sa dad mo ng fiance game.Kasi alam kong sya ang pipiliin mo ,Janice i love you ,noon pa man ,even if you dont have the looks that every men would be attracted to,but you have the inner beauty inside that can make a man fall inlove." Sabi niya habang sa mga mata ko lang sya nakatingin.

Napayuko ako...

How could i?
How could i hurt this man?how dare me?to hurt him?he doesn't deserve to be hurt.He doesn't deserve the pain.My mind yell

As well as you dont deserve to be hurt .As well as you dont deserve to be in so much pain,becuase your loving ,your just loving!your just inlove ,damn it! My heart yell.

If you feel hurt ,he must be too.my heart said.

Then what should i do?my mind ask

What do you want to feel ,now? heart replys

I want someone to hug me and make me feel special.my mind suggests

He maybe feel the same way,my heart answers

What if he dont want too?my mind asks

Theres nothing wrong if you try.my heart said .

I look at him ,paalis na sya.

And for the first time in my life.Sinunod ko ang puso ko,niyakap ko sya mula sa likuran niya.

And for some reason,i  feel relieved, i feel safe and secure, i can still feel the pain but it slowly fading .

Sana kahit papaano nakatulong ako sayo jani.Sana.

thats all thank you
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