A storm over head (Daryl Dixon fanfic)

Ticking time bomb

it had been three months the babies had been born and daryl  was so so happy to have them in this world the were like little  angels .  Tamara wasn't although she loved them she just couldn't find herself being motherly , The doctor told her that it was postnatal depression . but if it was why didn't she feel it when she had katrina . so in the dead of the night she left , left behind he family a note for each. for her two boys , for Daryl , for Carl , for Rick and one for Enid who she had become quite close to in the last three months . 

The one for her boys read . 

Dear Tryesse and Corey ,

i'm sorry i left , i just didn't think that i could be a good enough mother . carol would make a better one and i hope that she was able to step up .  I hope that one day I can feel the urge to come back and be your mother and you won't have to read this . but if you are im really sorry  that i left you behind , i hope your dad hasn't changed because of me i hope he still is the best man that i have ever met . My friend shane died two years ago and he told me to tell you boys to always keep one bullet in you gun because if god forbid you were surrounded by the walkers you would not turn in to them because you  could use the bullet. 

i love you so much , and i hope you know that this happened for the best 

love mum . 

the letter she wrote to daryl was 

Dear Daryl , 

I know I broke a promise , I made sure that I planned this in hopes one day when I feel I can raise our boys. I will be able to return but I understand that you may not want me back.  

look after our boys even when the memories of me come tell them who i was tell them who you are . don't let me leaving change you be strong for them , smile that beautiful smile . tell them about the people we lost and gained over the years . 

tell them about you childhood so the understand how your standing here . promise me , kinda ironic coming from me though

i love you dare , i will come back one day .

love Tamara .

carl letter read .

dear carl,

 I want you to help daryl , I know that alot to ask of  you but I have seen you grow up in this world grow accustomed to it . I want you to tell the boys what the old world was like tell them what you loved what you hated . tell them about your mother and tell them that there mother was a coward . make sure that they all stay strong all of my boys . continue to look after judith ,tell her about me . i hope i'll be allowed back to this group when I decided to return . 

i love you my boy 

love aunty t

ricks only read a couple words 

dear rick 

look after them 

love Tamara ,

Enid read

dear Enid 

times tough aye , I now know how you feel. times are hard but lately they have felt so much harder . I  wanted to be the perfect mother but I can't, before all this I loved being a mum . now it feels like I love the idea but not so much actually being a mother . do you think one day a switch well be flicked and I will want to be ?. im being so selfish but im not ending it, I believe that i'm going to get better. I  just have to be alone , like you did .  I shut my eyes at night and hope that im greeted by my friend shane but every morning  I wake up to the man i love and crying babies .I can survive on my own I have done it before, can you do me a favour and make sure that they dont leave to come find me . tell them im long gone ,tell them what you have to . 

your the only one that has ever understood it all ,The fact that you almost forced to survive , look after carl , look after maggie . I told her I was going to help with the pregnancy and now that i'm gone that not going to be possible. so help her in the ways that you can . 

promise me something you will keep an eye on daryl and the babies and make sure that hes okay . don't pester him though because he doesn't like that . look after my people ,look after yourself .

-T

that was six months ago now the group was on there knees about to face the hardest thing of there of  life ,

"and i pick you " the sound of a head getting smashed .

"suck my nuts"

and then the man holding the bat come down on his head again and again 

"did you hear that he said suck my nuts "

daryl moved to hit the guy but that was the wrong idea because , next thing the group knew the bat come down on to glens head . 

glen slowly got up and said his last and final words directed at soully maggie " i will find you "

before the evil man come down again and again into glens head before he became just like abraham a body with no head .  the group sobbed 

glen was never going to see maggie give birth , and be the dad that he wanted . he wasn't going to see his baby grow up . glen sat up the with abraham hand on his shoulder as glen let out a loud cry the rain began to poor heavy on the group. daryl realised that glenn death was entirely his fault and that he was to blame