A storm over head (Daryl Dixon fanfic)

priest and infection

" dont worry she'll come back, i didn't hurt her brain, no no no we need to wait , i need you to see you will finally get it . we have to wait "

" lizzie put the gun down " Tyrese said 

" i just want to wait "

"we can wait , we can wait just give me the gun. we can wait i swear " lizzie hands the gun to carol slowly but surely ." you and tyrese should take judith back , it not safe for her"

"but judith can change to, i was just about to"

"she cant even walk yet "

"yea your right "

" so you two take judith back to the house and well have lunch and i will just tie mika up, just so she wont go anywhere"

" promise that what you will do " 

"mmmhmm i promise i'll use her shoe laces"

tyreese and lizzie both walked off towards the house and when carol was sure that they were out of few she let herself break down. she broke a promise to there dad she promised to keep them safe and she couldnt and she felt like she was losing sophia all over again 

- tamara 

the more she scrubbed at the blood there more it felt like it was being replaced by more . she finally found a river where she could scrub at the blood further  . the water turned red  around her as the blood of last night washed off her it was then she realised that she had been cut and the cut didn't look good at all . it looked like it was slightly infected so after making sure she washed it she got up and started walking to the pharmacy that she had seen earlier . entering she looked for rubbing alcohol and a first aid kit once finding it she . she put a cloth in her mouth before she started pouring it on she groaned in pain as the rubbing alcohol dripped down her arm , she  wrapped a bandage around her arm screwing it in place . she looked around the pharmacy for other things but the pills had all been taken . 

walking around around the town for a bit  she saw a car pull up she watched as they too entered the pharmacy that she had just excited  . she over heard them say that it was fine that the didn't have pills here because they had plenty at camp .  Tamara jumped into the back seat of the car and hid so that she would get to the camp . she remind back there till nightfall and she was sure that everybody was in bed she snuck out and went on a hunt for the pills . she found them but as she turned to leave a man stood there about to  scream out but Tamara acted quickly throwing a knife into his head .

and then it happened again she blacked out and went on another killing rampage . which she regretted once again collecting multiple supplies from the camp before she left. this camp didn't even deserve what she was doing . why was she killing people she was a cop she use to arrested people that did this , why was she doing this crying again she realised that she was letting this world change her  into something that she never ever wanted to do.

this world was changing her now that  she was alone ,and it wasn't making her stronger it was making her crazy just like shane she was doing whatever it took to survive and then she remembered lukes blue eyes the ones that looked like daryl . she wasn't going to do it ever , she promised that she would never ever kill another human soul . unless of course it was to keep her alive , no more killing rampages .

and she would hold on to the hope that the baby that was growing inside her would survive because that all she had left of daryl now .   so after she cleaned the blood off again she prayed that the baby would survive and that it had daryl beautiful blue eyes.

Tamara hadn't had the best of luck having babies and right know having a miscarriage would not be safe . because on her last one she bled so much they had to do a blood transfusion and the one after that the same , but for some reason  her gut told her that for the first time since her daughter this baby was going to grow just fine as long as she ate properly  and made sure that she got rid of this infection.  and as she sat with he back against the the tree there stood a man with a white collar tamara realised he was a priest . 

"help me " the priest picked up his pace as he walked away and tamara followed after him quickly right to the church where he was just about to shut the door but she jammed her foot in it and stopped it . " your going to help me " she said pushing the door open and sitting in one of the chairs in the church the priest was shocked but closed the door nonetheless.

"pick some wild flowers for mika, to give her when she comes back"

"yea she would love that , fires still burning "

carol remembered what lmika had said about the smoke " no, smokes white its out "

"you know everything mam" 

" know i dont "

"what is it , what is it . are you mad at me is that what you wanted to talk to me about ,i'm sorry i pointed my gun at you i just wanted you to wait "

" i know "

"sorry , you mad at me "

" i love you lizzie , and everything  works out the way it supposed to "

" im sorry please dont be mad at me im sorry "

"just look at the flowers lizzie just look at the flower, just look at the flowers " and the a gun shot rung out. 

she had to do it didn't she ,she had to if she didn't something else bad could happen she killed a child that wasn't made for this world like her sister was . 

and as the dug the whole for the two girls she felt a mixture of emotion, the world changed people and they either changed to be able to survive and if the didn't change that way the would be dead