Take A Chance On Me | A Juan GDL Epistolary (Completed)

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I've been in the gym for almost 3 hours now and he's still ignoring me. The boys have also tried to help me in some way. They made some jokes and teasings so Juan would notice my existence. Unfortunately, none of them were good enough to make him turn my way.

I was sitting beside Yani at the bleachers when she called for Juan to do a segment with her for the "More" vlog. We all saw him took a moment to decide. Yani smiled at me when finally, for the first time in days, he looked and went at my direction. I smiled back to thank her.

After the vlog, I gathered my courage to stand and ask him. "Juan, can we talk?" But still, no reply. Napupuno na ako. It was an accumulation of annoyance, stressful curiosity, and concern that made me burst my guts out.

"PANSININ MO AKO, JUAN GERARDO!"

Nanahimik lahat ng nasa loob ng gym. The squeaking of rubber shoes against the wooden floor and the bouncing of basketballs went to a complete sudden stop. All eyes were on me, on both of us. Juan had no choice but to look back at the little, angry woman behind him.

"Alright, what's your problem ba? Make it quick. I have to practice." He was cold. Freezing cold. It's scary. Parang wala lang ako sa kanya. My heart started to feel heavy like it's gonna sink to the bottom again.

"You tell me, mister! What's your problem with me?"

He harshly threw the ball down and raised his tone.

"Why did you have to lie, huh? Why lie about Mike?"

I was a bit shocked. How did he know? Did Pia told him? Nobody knew except her. I took a deep breath before continuing.

"Juan, I asked for closure. I'm sorry it had to be on that day. But that was the only time he was free and that night he flew to the US for good. I had to take my last chance to talk to him in person."

"You could've just told me that. Why didn't you?"

"Oh really? You think it was a good idea to tell you I'm meeting up with Mike on that day? That was your game with Ateneo! I knew how badly you wanted to win! Ayaw ko maging parte pa ako ng isipin mo nung araw na 'yun. You had to focus on the game."  

Natigilan siya. Natigilan ang lahat. It felt like we were all part of some teleserye. 

"My turn to ask now. Paano mo nalaman?" I asked. I saw him looking so skeptic to answer but it was a good thing his voice started to mellow down.

"Dani texted me. She saw you two at BGC and sent me a pic."

I heard a couple of "oh no's" in the background. Some sighed in disappointment. They shook their heads. Truly, napaka-coincidental naman yata. I managed to bring a savage tone to the table.

"Oh, I thought you guys were done. You textmates now?"

"Don't turn the situation around, Pen!" He didn't take my words good. He got furious. But I got to be real with him.

"You know why I asked closure from Mike? So that I could move on and focus on...

my feelings for you."

Wala na akong pake kahit naririnig ng lahat. Ito ang totoo. He has to hear it for himself. Loud and clear.

"Pero ngayon tinatanong ko sa sarili ko if worth it nga ba 'yung ginawa ko. Kasi hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin tayo malinaw. Everything's still a blur. Ano ba ako sa 'yo, Juan? Bestfriend mo lang? Kalandian mo lang?"

Lahat kami naghintay sa sagot niya. Pero wala. Wala siyang naisagot.

"Well, I guess I'm nothing to you then, huh?"

Author's Note:

AAAAAAA I hate writing this chapter

Anywaaaay, let's support the Maroons tomorrow against the Archers (kahit na di ako makapanood dahil nasa SK pa rin ako huhu)

#UPFight through and through ❤️💚