Cameron Boyce Short Stories

Crossed Part 10 Finale

Cameron

"Find yourself again, Cam."

It's been 3 weeks since I spoke to China, since I blew up on Dove, and since I talked to anyone else that wasn't Booboo or Luke. I've been doing the usual, going to class, handling my work. I'm thinking about joining Sigma Chi with Tommy even though I haven't spoke to him in 3 weeks. It wasn't nothing personal, though. But I feel like a brotherhood is the best option for me. Per China's request and also for a peace of mind for myself, I dropped every girl I was dealing with, but I didn't let her know that. I didn't let her know anything or give her any signs when we would see or walk past each other.

I've been listening to calm music to help me relax, like I use to before things went bad. I've called or FaceTimed my parents everyday so far for these last three weeks. They've been happy about that and so has Maya. I miss her. I've started going for runs when I have the time, just to give me some head space. I've picked back up on teaching myself how to play guitar. I was strumming quietly as in was about 11PM, when there was a knock at my door.

"Come in." I said, normal tone because it was dead silent in the hallway. And there she was, in my room for the first time in 3 weeks. She bust through the door, speaking all too fast for me to understand because I was high as a kite. Oh yeah, I started smoking weed to. Luke thought it would be a good idea to mellow me out.

"Icantdothisanymore. ImissyouandIneedyousodamnbad. Idontcarewhatyouwanttodo. Iloveyousodamnmuch, Cameron." she said all at once. I slowly put my guitar down, walking over to her as she rambled on and on, a mess.

"AndIknowIsaidthatyouneedtofindyourselfandallthatshit, whichyoudo, butIwanttohelpyoueverystepofthewaywithit. Idontwantyoutohavetogothroughitalone. Nooneshouldgothroughsomethinglikethisalone." she continued on. I put my head down, laughing quietly to myself and she went on and on as I struggled to keep up.

Finally having enough, I grabbed her face, smashing our lips together in a kiss. A slow kiss. A kiss that for me, brought everything between us back to mind, though it's not like any of it left. From the first night we did things when we were 16, to me taking her virginity, all of our cute little moments, all of arguments, it all played through my mind. When I finally did, separate from the kiss, I immediately rested my forehead against hers, laughing quietly again.

"Thank you." I said. "For everything. I love you too." She didn't say anything else, but instead wrapped her arms around me, pulling me in for a tight hug, which I didn't hesitate to return. It felt great.

For the first time in months, my side of the room was how I wanted it to be. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't super messy, but it wasn't how I usually kept things. I got back into video games like I promised Taj and Ty that I would. Sometimes a break is really all that you need to get back on your feet. I was slowly starting to find myself again, not for Chi, but for me.

"Are you wearing that cologne I got you?" she asked, face in my chest.

"Yeah. I got tired of smelling like axe all the time." I said, still holding her. "I've been wearing it, but you can't tell because axe overpowers every scent." She lost it and started crying. "Why are you crying?"

"I've missed you so much, Cameron." she said. "The real you." Oh trust me, I've missed the real me too, the more social me, that wasn't trying to take advantage of any girl that would let me fuck her. The me that loved hanging out with the bros more than anything. I stayed silent, simply nodding at what she said, something else weighing heavily on my mind.

"So about trying us." I began.

"What about it?" she asked.

"I want to." I said, pulling away from her and holding both of your hands. "For years, I've ignored something that could've been beautiful. Something that could of saved me from this stupid ass path I went down. I want to be happy, China. Really happy, not fake happy. I've already taken the first step. And the only step left, starts with you. So, us. Is that something we can try?"

"Yes." she quickly said, pulling me in for another kiss. "I wanted there to be an us for the longest, Cam. But you have to promise me something." I looked in deep in her eyes, a signal for letting her know to keep going with what she was saying.

"If you ever feel strange, or bad, or if you feel yourself taking a turn for the worse again, please tell me." she begged. "There's nothing more than I want to see then you being yourself. I love you so much, papas."

"I love you too, mamas." I said back. "I always will. Forever and always. You're everything to me, Chi. And you always will be. I won't hurt you again. I promise."

"You don't have to promise me anything other than that you will continue to take care of and be yourself." she said back and I nodded, going in to kiss her again.

"Hey Cam, are you re-," Booboo came flying into the door before quickly making his way back out. "Every. Fucking. Time."

I've got scars
From a life before you...

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