Everything i didn't say // 5sos

11

To me, weekends meant sleeping in late. Since I wake up really early for school during the week, I try to appreciate my chance to sleep on the weekend.

Anybody that disturbs my sleep can go to hell. I love sleep more than I love myself.

"Jordan!!" Blake yelled through the other side of the door multiple times.

Instead of replying, I put my pillow over my head to try and block him out, making him continue.

"Go away its too early! Its like-" I stopped to look at the clock. '11:58' it was bright red digits. I didnt even bother finishing my sentence.

"Exactly, come on get dressed" Blake chuckled through the other side of the door.

What he said reminded me I needed to talk to him, unfortunately that meant I had to get out of my comfy bed. It was important though.

"Wait Blake" I ran out of my bed to open the door to tell him about my plans later.

"Yes" he leaned against the stairs with his arms crossed waiting for my question.

"Um I kinda have plans and I can't go" I looked down at my hands picking my sleeves.

It was the third saturday of the month. Every month on the third saturday, Blake makes a special day for us to hang out. Just brother and sister day. We haven't had it in a long time because of his work and all.

I felt bad, this meant a lot to him.

As soon as I said it, his smile faded into a frown. He had been excited about us finally hanging out together but now that I told him I had plans, I know I upset him.

Atleast it was something I can make up.

'You've said that the past few times and so did he' my conscious reminded me.

"Oh" he said.

"Im so sorry, I know we haven't done this in a while because of everything going on but I promise it won't happen again, just one day" I stepped on my tippy toes since hes so tall and hugged him.

"Is that a promise Jojo?" he said sarcastically.

"Indeed it is Blakey" I mocked his tone.

Promises were everything to me. Never ever have I broken a promise.

I remembered I still havent asked for permission to go today from my mum.

I knew she was going to talk about my dad coming home and that I should spend time with him blah blah. But with what happened last night, she was definitely going to bring it up.

I walked downstairs to the kitchen finding mum standing by the counter drinking her coffee staring off into space.

"Morning" I smiled grabbing fruit bowl out of the fridge and a fork out of the cabinet.

"Goodmorning" Mum said but still not looking at me.

"Sooooooooo.." I trailed off chewing on a grape. It was sour, I made the ugliest face for sure.

"Don't you have plans with your brother today?" She asked still staring on into space.

Why won't she look at me, I was so confused. Usually she would tell me to wait till i'm sitting down to ear, she claims it's not good for my digestive system but I did it anyways.

"About that, we rescheduled it because I had been invited to do something with my friends" I told her.

"Ask your father" She said emotionless.

"Ha yeah funny joke mum but please can I go?" I asked almost choking on the piece of fruit I was chewing.

"Look last night, I wasn't there so i'm not exactly sure what happened when your father came home, but he told me you and your brother had been very disrespectful to him when he arrived and that was not necessary" she turned to me with her eyes looking puffy, as if she had been crying.