Reincarnated Hearts 1: MY 1905 SENIORITA

Seniorita 4

Seniorita 4

Selina:

"Do you like the details of your gown, hija?" I sourly smile and nodded. Tita Estela here suggested herself this wedding gown.

Boring.. Actually, wala naman akong pakialam talaga with all the details and designs! Ako lang ba ang ikakasal? I mean, pumayag na ba ang anak nila for us to discuss 'the details'?

Hah! Even his pretentious-arrogant shadow was not here!

Katatapos lang naming mag-dinner. Tito Fernando and papa Fred were loudly talking about this grand entourage. I rolled my eyes—urg, cacn't help it though!

"Don't you like the designs, hija? Marami pa naman sa catalogue.." I had to clear-out my throat. I forgot that tita was waiting for my reactions here and I just rolled my eyes.

"I'm sorry po—Uhm.." What should be the exact words to tell, hmmm? Umayos ako ng upo. "..I am still skeptic, tita.. Kasi, obviously, you're son, Lutther—he clearly dislikes this plan." Even I—loathe this but for papa..I gotta agree.. I looked at tita's saddened reaction. She put the catalogue back on the glass table and reached for my hand.

I felt..touched.. It was so long that I felt this kind of motherly bliss. Na-miss ko si mama Fe..

"Pagpasensyahan mo ang anak namin, Selina.. He'll eventually realize na ang lahat ay para din naman sa kaniya—sa inyong dal'wa.. We've been planning this wedding since..when you're both young.."

She was smiling but half of her emotions were troubled. I hell knew the vain Lutther. Hindi ito basta-bastang napapayag sa gusto ng iba—even his own parent's decision.

Lalo pa't may girlfriend ito!

Lucky me—wala akong sineseryosong lalake ngayon but I had lots of flings though!

And to hear that they pre-planned this wedding?

Simula pa noong mga bata pa kami? Like what the—was it even real in this generation?

"Actually, tita—I'll be honest.. Hindi ko naman talaga gusto, e.." I held her hand tightly coz I could be harsh or blatant when it comes to my words.

"..pero para kay papa—he's very sick. He wished to see me in good hands. Seemed ridiculous kasi—alam ko'ng I can handle myself, tita! But you know, he'd been talking about death and all weird stuffs—ayoko.."

I inhaled deep and forced not to shred deep emotions in front of her—I was known to be strong and tough and bold.. I should never cry! Not in the four corners of my room—pero 'pag tungkol sa sakit ni papa at sa taning ng buhay niya that he'd repeatedly said.. I felt so..scared and to live alone in this world?

Ano pa bang mas nakakatakot?

I had all those material things—name it!

But thinking that I'd be left alone in this world any time soon? Yes, I am a tough woman against the world but when it comes to my family—I am the weakest..

"Naiintindihan kita, Selina.. I know how much you love your family—hindi lang nakikita ng ibang tao yun. But you're a good child to your dad.." I had to looked away from tita's glare. Kasi naman—alam ko ang ibig-sabihin niya! I had been in the tabloids and online news lately—everyone's feasting on my negative stuffs!

I hell don't care!

If they're firing me and me alone—I f***ing don't care as long as they'll exempt my family. Actually, the press really love to buzz my personal life—my constant presence in Paris runaways; my new flings; my new bought cars; lahat nalang—they kept of intriguing every bit of me!

That's fine. Basta 'wag lang nilang pakialam ang pamilya ko kasi diyan ko sila babatuhin ng Louis Vuitton stilletos at isaksak sa mga mata nila ang heels!

"Lutther!" Napalingon kami ni tita Estela when tito Fernando's voice yelled Lutther's name and they were also glancing at the main entrance of our mansion. He's here?

Bumilis bigla ang tibok ng puso ko, a! Well, did he change his mind? Did he finally agree? Arg, stupid questions! Napatayo si tita Estela and I followed her back to check Lutther's entrance. Unbelievable..

Nandito nga siya!

Pero we were answered by his presence and somewhat—a woman beside him whose pregnancy was quiet obvious!

I didn't have to feel these knives striking inside my chest—p-pero this is way too insulting! Tito Fernando immediately rushed towards his pathetic son as Lutther guarded his woman with his arm. Sh*t!

"What the hell is this, Lutther?" Tito's voice thundered! Pero halatang nagpipigil sa sarili. I stared at his face and his reaction was absurd! He continued to pace forward habang nakahawak sa bewang ng babae niya.

"Tito Fred—I am really sorry. I don't mean to be rude tonight pero ito ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako pwedeng makasal sa anak niyo po.." His rejections and all! Actually, I didn't have to feel pain coz I, myself—hindi ko rin gusto ang plano nila para sa'min. But I was triggered when he faced and said it to my father!

May sakit si papa!

I closed my fist and stepped forward and stayed at my father's side. Naniningkit ko rin siyang tinitigan pati na rin ang babaeng kasama niya.

Does he really think I am that stupid!? Makikita mo mamaya, Lutther!

"Do you really have to do this, Lutther? In our own house and in front of my papa!?" Damn it! Walang makakapigil sa'kin ngayon kung may makaladkad akong buntis palabas sa bakuran namin. To hell I care!

As I was about to grab the woman my father stepped aside swiftly. "Selina, don't." He quickly held my hand at sobrang naiinis ako ngayon—no, nanggigigil ako ngayon kay Lutther for putting a f***ing show here!

Talaga bang aabot pa sa ganito?

F***ing as*holes!

"Papa, sumusobra na 'tong gagong 'to, e—as if I really wanted to tie my f***ng neck around his coward balls!" I yelled. I felt the rage inside me and damn—it couldn't be just thawed easily.

I saw his eyes widened against my blatant words—bakit ba? Wala naman talaga siyang balls, e! Lalake lang siya—pero wala siyang bayag!

"Anong sinabi mo?" He greeted his teeth and obviously caught his ego right there. Bakit? Nasaktan siya? Tsk! He didn't even think about that before he made this f***ing scene—fabricate my a*s!

Binitiwan ko ang kamay ni papa saka lumapit sa kaniya. Habang ang babae niya ay nakayuko lang sa gilid.

"Do you really want me to repeat it, Lutther? That aside from the fact na lalake ka, e, wala ka namang bayag!" I shouted at him. Namula rin ito sa galit pero pasensya siya dahil wala akong pakialam. He started this!

"Please stop f-fighting..please Lutther—s-stop this--!" Tita Estela was panting hard and suddently fainted. She fell on the floor at nasalo naman 'agad ng anak niya.

"Fred!" Tito Fernando yelled out at huli na nga nang makita kong si papa naman ang inatake. Lutther, this is your goddamn fault!