can i be close to you ~ boreo

part three

i didn't sleep much that night. i didn't cry when boris left either, surprisingly.

i was just shocked, it shocked was the right word. my door was left open so popchyk came wandering in.

he didn't seem to notice, or care, that boris left. he seemed to just be happy anywhere where he could be warm and sleep. (mood)

i didn't want to get out of bed, but i did. the only reason was because i had to take popper out so he wouldn't pee everywhere.

we walked downstairs together, popchyk bouncing along happily. i wanted to talk to boris, apologize, but i didn't even know where he was. even though i knew he wasn't at school. guess we were both skipping today.

popchyk immediately ran to the back door. i opened it for him and let him do what he needed to do. while he was doing whatever he was doing, i refilled his bowl with dog food.

there wasn't much i could do. it was boring without boris here. i had gotten use to it because of kotku, but now that i had a chance to be with him and screwed it up, it was more boring.

after a few minutes of pacing and thinking, i let popchyk back inside and decided to watch tv.

i flipped through channels on the tv, but nothing was interesting enough. nothing on tv was ever interesting enough unless boris was here to mock whatever show was playing, then it was automatically funny.

we would spend hours on one of the most boring channels, just making fun of the people, and wherever boris heard an english word he wasn't fond of, he would say it out loud, and respond with "what the fuck does that mean?"

he usually pronounced it wrong the first time, and whenever i corrected him he would say something like "same thing, potter"

i found a channel that was playing a show that me and boris watched before. i smiled to myself every time it played a part we both laughed hysterically at for no good reason.

i shouldn't have been as entertained as i was, but i was. it didn't last too long before i had to see boris. i had to apologize. i didn't know where he was but i had to try and find him.

i wasn't about to go to kotkus just to apologize, but he didn't live far from me, so i was gonna walk over to his house.

it was 8:43am. to boris it was too early, so even if he was there he would be asleep. kotku would probably be sleeping with him.

i almost brought an umbrella with me because the mornings in vegas were the hottest, and i learned the umbrella thing from boris.

but, i ended up just walking there, with no umbrella. it was hot but i wasn't focusing on my heat, i was focusing on what i was going to say.

no matter what i thought of nothing sounded right to say, so winging it was my best bet.

10 minutes later, it would've taken only 5 if the heat wasn't weighing me down, i was at the front of boris' house.

the heat didn't stop me from having the chills. i was scared. if this didn't go well then that settled it, i wouldn't have any friends.

as slowly as i could, i approached his door. i lightly knocked on it.

yeah he definitely heard that, i thought to myself. so i knocked on the door louder. i knew he heard it that time, therefore my heart began racing. if, he even was home. i hopes to god he was home.

he had to be, right?

i waited for what felt like 3 minutes, which is a lot longer than you think if you put it in perspective.

i sighed, and almost turned back, but i heard the door unlock.

i froze. i would've bet all my money that it was boris' dad who answered, but to my surprise it was boris.

you could tell he just woke up. his hair was messier than usual, and he was squinting to look at me.

with only a slight bit of hesitation, i wrapped my arms around him, and buried my face into his chest. boris seemed confused, but that didn't matter. the only part that mattered was i did the right thing, and boris hugged me back.