can i be close to you ~ boreo

part ten

unexpectedly, after about five minutes, boris slammed opened the door and came inside my room. popchyk jumped out of my arms to greet him.

"hi potter." he said with no expression.

"hi? anything to say?" he sat down next to me.

"sure." he was looking straight ahead at my wall. i was watching popchyk scratch boris's leg.

"okay... what is it?" i asked again. he sighed.

"with all the kotku mess, i have been a mess. figuring out myself, making even dumber decision, blah blah. but if i must be real with you..." there was a pause. i looked over to him and he looked over to me.

"i guess i have figured out myself." he smiled sweetly at me. i smiled back, but confused.

"okay. that's um.. great?"

"yes! but i mean, i didn't know how to feel whenever you kissed me just a second ago. i had never felt more emotions going on at once. but that's good, no?"

"i guess, what's your point."

"ah, yes. my point..." he paused again. but this time he didn't continue his sentence.

"boris, stop. tell me."

"i cant potter! is harder than you think!" my heart all at once stopped beating, and broke. i knew he was trying to say he only liked girls and didn't want to hurt my feelings.

"oh.. i get it, you don't have to continue..." i looked down. i felt him look over at me again.

"eh?"

"i know what you were getting at, you don't have to say anything else." boris laughed and shook his head. i looked at him, madly confused.

"no you don't, you took it the wrong way! i don't know why i think it's hard to say such thing, but i guess i'm saying that i never felt those feelings mixing together when me and kotku kissed. so i guess what i'm saying that... is you. you're the one i like. i love." my heart came back together.

"then, wh-why didn't you just say that?"

"because you know the people at school, bad people potter! will call us faggots, beat us up, you know!" i grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers.

"boris, i don't care. i just want to be with you. as long as we're happy i don't care what others say or think." he squeezed my hand lightly.

"me neither, but what if it gets to the point where they beat us up?"

"well let's just take it one day at a time." i said and smiled at him.

he cupped his hands around my cheeks and pulled my face closer to his. our lips pressed together and i could just hear the fireworks going off in my mind.

it was official. boris was my boyfriend.