Knight In Distress

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They say that when the love of your life has gone, you will feel the pain. You won't be able to eat, sleep or basically do anything because you always end up crying and breaking down.

Me? I was too numb to feel anything at all. I just sat there staring blankly at the wall. I couldn't sleep, when I do, nightmares attack me. It would always be about him. I always end up waking up in cold swear, sobbing. But the sad part was no one was ever there or me. I had no family left, no friends, nobody. Now that Luke, James and my parents were gone, I was utterly alone.

I couldn't eat. Food no longer interests me. I don't know. I just don't have an appetite anymore. Well, I must be worse than I thought I was. I always did love food but now, it doesn't look apetizing.

I honestly felt like I was in a trance. I've been like that since I left. Yeah. I left Australia. I couldn't handle what happened there. That was the place where my life came crashing down. I was beggining to think that maybe things would've been better had I not left America in the first place. But I knew that leaving wouldn't get rid of the pain, but at least I didn't have to be reminded of everything.

I didn't even say goodbye to him. How could I now that he was gone. I didn't have to face his now empty body and bid him farewell. After what happened, I got out of the hospital as soon as I was able, packed my bags and left. Without a goodbye. Goodbyes will only make things harder for me. And I couldn't face all those people. I would find something that would remind me of him and then I know for sure I'd end up crying.

I recently filed my resignation as an agent in S.H.I.E.L.D since I plan on continuing my education in hopes of being a psychologist. I always did love the thought of getting to talk to people who had problems and help them get better. The idea of saving someone's life just entices me.

Then maybe, just maybe, I'll get to live a normal life. 

~*~

One year later

I felt someone take the seat next to mine. I didn't bother to look who it was since I already knew. I just kept my eyes trained on my psychology book.

"Oi, are you gonna keep ignoring me, Snow?" Alex said, poking my arm with his #2 pencil.

I ignored his continuos poking and started writting down information for my report. I had a report due on Friday for my introduction to psychology class.

"Focused now are we?" Alex grabbed my book and placed it on the table beside him.

"Hey!"

"Hi!"

"Give it back."

"No."

"Come on!"

"No."

"Please."

"Go out with me."

"No." It was my turn to say no.

"Please." He pouted. I grabbed my notebook and hit his head with it.

"Don't pout. You don't look cute."

"You wound me," He put a hand over his heart and I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah, a bruise is definitely going to be there tomorrow morning." I patted his head and messed his hair up.

"Watch the hair, watch the hair." He moved away from my touch and started fixing his red hair.

I leaned in and grabbed my book from his side.

"Girls dig that?" I asked as I opened my book.

"Yeah, they find it hot." He said, fixing the last lock of hair.