Lover : A Book Of Heartbreaks

💠18| Broken Sirens

BROKEN SIRENS

I wanted to speak up, to shout and to defend myself from all the people around me.

My bravey words was like a quick sand, it slipped and fall down to my sore throat.

They thought I was okay, inside of me, I was slowly drowning into the waves of my fears.

My lungs are filled with sadness, I couldn't breathe, like there are thorns pricked my fragile insides.

They don't know I cried silently at night, the pain I felt inside was the worst feeling I ever had.

I covered both of my ears, so the harsh words I wouldn't hear could not go straight to my heart.

Because my heart are stabbed by a poison knife.

I was weak and hopeless to help myself.

I felt my body is gonna surrender, for my system had a malfunction, and I tried to hold on tonight.

I couldn't see through the light with my poor eyes.

I was lost and was blinded by reality.

A hurtful reality that I couldn't stand up from my own.

I was still confuse on which path I would travel.

I wished I was strong enough to face the cruel world outside, to experience a new life without you.

I also wished for some wings, and so I could fly up high independently.

If I was not afraid to try alone, to move on, and to live in present.

And if someone could know what I'd been through.

- - - If I could do it and I would leave my past behind tonight. Sadly, my voice was cracked like a broken sirens.