Played Out

Q&A

ESSENCE

"Ess do you think you overreacted at all?"

"Sometimes I do if I'm being honest. I feel like I'm so inexperienced with the situations I've been in with Pharaoh and everything that I just go with my knee jerk reaction versus really thinking things through. I'm trying to be better about that... still got work to do though. "

"Ess why do you still love Pharaoh?"

"I mean you can't just stop loving a person. I have no plans to be with him and I can't be friends with him but honestly.... I don't think I'll ever stop loving him. I don't know if you noticed but Pharaoh was my first love. I've only ever had one other boyfriend (yall know how that went) and we never got to love"

"Why won't you let Pharaoh love you?"

"I feel like I did let him love me... but when someone hurts you. I don't know I'm just not built to sweep things under the rug. I think we are better off loving each other from a far for now"

"Why you so irrational?"

"I don't try to be *laugh* I'm just emotional and I'm not used to shit like this. My life was basic until Pharaoh came along. I took care of my family and hung out with Gianni until college. The only thing that changed in college was Kira came along. Pharaoh drama really shook up my life that I got use to. Granted it wasn't that simple in a sense but I was comfortable?"

"Why don't you like Harmony?"

"I don't got a problem with that girl. She just rude and I don't fool with rude hoes "

"Why would you cut off Gianni like that? Did you really expect her and Jordan to break up?"

"Gianni is my bestie and one thing I know about her is the importance of loyalty. I wasn't really mad about Jordan. I was made about the fact that she hid getting back with him AND she was kiki'ing in Pharaoh and his baby mama face. Like if you want to stay with Jordan then cool but I'm not fucking with him. And as my friend I would expect you not to just ignore what my ex did to me and be friends just because that's yo man homie. For me that's just disrespectful to our friendship"

"Do you think you put to much responsibility on Jordan when it comes to the bet?"

"Nope! Jordan might not have been involved in the bet but he knew about it. I understand where is loyalty lies but don't sit in my face when you know some grimy shit going on behind my back. Not to mention, we hung out as friends more than I did the other guys. He was becoming like a brother to me. I just feel like you don't put yourself in them position when you watching the person get stabbed through the back"

"Will you and Gianni ever be friends again?"

"Simple answer is I don't know... I don't think either of us is going to put the effort in"

"Would you ever consider giving Pharaoh a chance?"

000"With everything going on... I don't see that happening for us. Like I said, I will always love him *in my Whitney Houston voice* but my parents always taught me, if you don't have trust you can't have anything. I don't trust him like that.... I will admit.... sometimes I wish I had my friend back though"

"Don't you think you and Pharaoh kinda rushed things?"

"Always! I always felt like things between us moved fast... but it felt like forever. Like when we talk and hang out, it feels like we've known each other for years"

"Do you regret giving Pharaoh a chance?"

"Not at all actually. Yeah, he hurt me. But it did help me realize I can't live like that. My initial reaction was that I was right all along and should just shut myself out from people... but that's not what's up. Like I had fun being with him as friend and allowing new people in my life. I don't want to limit myself because of what happen. I want to move on. It took a minute to get over but I'm in a better space about it"

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Pharaoh

"Why would you agree to the bet in the first place?"

"It was a mix of immaturity and doing stupid shit with my friends. Like yall gotta understand how big a college so it's not like it was just the game. We wasn't playing all the time. It was like a once a semester thing. Overall, I just didn't think it was that serious"

"Why didn't you tell her about the bet once it got serious?"

"Shit I thought about it... but it just seemed like a bad idea. And I honestly convinced myself that once I ended the bet, which I did because I had serious feelings, she would never find out about it. I didn't think it was something important to tell"

"Why didn't you fight harder to get Essence back?"

"It's not that I didn't fight... but I know Essence and after our talk in the park there was no point in trying to prove something to her. She don't want us and I had to accept that"

"Does you family know why you and Essence really broke up?"

"Only my brother and sister. My sister and Ess have been real close since her situations. Essence was there like a big sister and I know it helped. She wasn't fucking with me on that shit for real but eventually we talked it out. Still disappointed but life is life"

"Do you think you and Essence will ever get back together?"

"Did you not read the story? I love Essence and am still crazy in love with her... but I know her. I would jump at the chance to be together again. Do I think that chance is going to come? Not at all... but I'll always have hope for it"

"Are you ready or willing to move on from Essence now?"

"I mean my answer right now is no but I know Imma get there eventually. Right now, I'm just focused on my son and being a better man. I mean that's what being single is for right?"

"If Harmony wasn't pregnant, would you have let her and Essence fight?"

"Of course not *laugh* Essence would've molly whopped Harmony ass and Harm cool but she definitely the type to press charges and shit. Now there were a couple times when I wanted to gone let Essence tap that ass but I wouldn't allow that"

"Are you going to really move in with Harmony?"

"Hell nahh! I was talking crazy crazy but we gone figure something out"

"Does Harmony know you and Essence broke up"

"Yes and no. I'm sure she knows but we've never talked about it. When she tries I just shut the conversation down. It just aint her business"

"Do you think you'll give Harmony a chance now?"

"Nope! I really don't feel her like that. She the homie but that's all"

"Did Harmony ever pay you back the abortion money?"

"Damn! I forgot about that but Nahh she never did"

"How are things with Harmony family?"

"I mean I don't have to deal with them because they not from here. I talk to Destiny of course and I talk to her mom here and there. As far as her granny or whatever, its a no for me. My family has accepted who Harmony is but I mean I know my mom don't rock with her like that. She nice when Harmony around but King already told me she not fucking with her forreal"