College is a time to grow while being wild and free. Still living reckless comes with consequences. It's all a part of life's cruel game. The question still remains: who will win and who will lose. Both Pharaoh and Essence have the highest to lose.
I laid in my bed sulking all cried out. I literally spent the whole Christmas Eve laying in my bed trying to get my life. Not only did I not sleep because of the fucking nightmares but now Pharaoh was giving me basically what I gave him for three days. I basically cried my eyes out until the sun went down. I felt bad about Pharaoh, scared from the nightmare, and just sad as fuck. And the only thing I wanted was my momma. The one person I could never get again.
I wrapped myself tighter in my mothers blanket that still had her scent when I heard someone open the door. I peaked to see Auntie Harper giving me a light smile. She sat on the bed rubbing my back for a minute just leaving us in silence.
"Talk to me sweets" she finally spoke
I shook my head knowing tears would form the minute I spoke out loud.
"Sweets we just talked about this. I'm here to give you love, protection, and guidance. I'm not Evelyn... honestly nobody could be as amazing as her but you girls" she smiled "But I'm your auntie and I'm going to love you and be here like always"
"I know" my voice shook causing me to sigh "It's just so much I can't explain"
"Let's talk about what you can"
"I feel like I'm sinking back into depression. And I'm so frustrated because the first time in so long... I was happy Auntie! Spending time with my daddy, I got dean's list, and...." I sighed
"And what sweets?"
"I finally felt something... I don't know something for a really nice guy" I shook my head "But now he won't even talk to me"
"He won't?"
"I didn't know how to explain the dreams and everything so I just pushed him off more and more every day. Now he not even responding to me" I wiped the one tear that feel "I just miss my mom and I want her to make it happy again. I can't do this without here"
"Essence baby" she pulled me up "I don't want you sulking and wallowing in sadness. Things are hard but we're going to make the best of the time we have together. We all love you more than you know and it hurts to see you like this" she smiled "Everything will work out but you have to trust me okay?"
I nodded "Okay"
"Come on" she stood up
"Where we going?"
"To make this the best Christmas you can remember" she smiled "Eve would want me to make her baby as happy as possible for the next few days and a couple surprises have popped up ready for you"
"Huh?"
"Just come on girl"
I laughed dragging myself out of the bed. My aunt pulled me out of my room before I could change from my pajamas. Everyone was in their pajamas as well but had bags packed and I was so confused. I kept asking question as we got in Mazikin's G-Wagon only to be ignored. I laughed as we reminisced about holidays back home before everything went bad. I was so caught up on memories I didn't realize we were pulling up to a super familiar house.
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