Don't Fall In Love!

Chapter 11: Another Problem?!

Previously on Don't Fall In Love!

Of course. I thought. It's not my fault or anyone's fault that I felt something special towards Garren. It just happened unintentionally. No one desired or expected it to come. And there's no other way but to choose. Right here, right now.

The options are to go with my feelings or to ignore and keep it myself.

But if I keep it myself, I'll explode. I must escape it.

I smiled.

I think I have decided.

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I think I have decided. I whispered to myself.

But before I could finish up the sentence in my mind, I realized that Wilson is with me!

And if he gets suspicious about me getting silent for a while, It'll get awkward.

"Wilson-" Before I could finish up my sentence, I noticed that I was alone.

Wilson has left.

I looked around just to make sure he wasn't fooling me.

But no sign of him anywhere.

"Well how polite of him." I whispered ironically.

Anyway, Let's go back to the earlier topic....

I shivered.

"Eek! I can't believe this!" I squealed silently.

I sighed.

I know this is for the best. And I know no matter how hard I try to ignore my feelings for Garren, it just makes it worse.

I wrapped my face with both of my palms. Like I wasn't ready to confess something. 

My heart pumped loudly.

Maybe if I just let myself love him, nothing would go wrong.

I'd save our friendship by loving him. I'd make sure he wouldn't feel awkward in any way. And besides, maybe he'll love me back. After all these moments we've been together.

I'll just let myself love him.

Because if I'll keep it to myself, It would all be normal but I would suffer internally. I couldn't think and act straight when I'm with him, which might lead to disaster on our friendship. 

I laughed mentally. But physically, I'm staring straight down the road.

I can't control love, once someone truly loves a person. Especially if both of you are close to each other, it would be impossible to stop. You have to carry on because if you neglect it and force it to yourself that you can't love that person, it'll result into tough consequences.

All these things came up to my mind and agreed to it.

But a voice in the back of my mind kept saying no to all of this.

I really need to stop loving Garren.

Even if I think it's hard, I need to.

You're loving a person who's supposed to be a friend only.

The little voice in my mind protested.

It's like a tiny innocent person and a tiny matured person talking above my shoulders like what happens in cartoons.

The only way to stop is to stay away from him.

But how can I possibly stop with out damaging our friendship?