Loving Diane

24

"You forgot? Really Diane? How the fuck does one forget something so horrific like that?" Lucas exclaimed

I looked away, "you wouldn't understand"

Lucas laughed bitterly

"You wouldn't understand because back then I was with a man who trusted me, a man who believed in me, a man who loved me so much that he made me forget the worst day of my life" I said looking into his eyes, my anger finally coming in the surface

Lucas was taken aback, almost as if someone had slapped him on his face

Regaining his composure, he set a blank face

"We both know you're a great liar so there's no point in lying" Lucas replied

"Lying? Are you even serious right now?" I yelled "Even after you found out the truth about Alex you still have the audacity to say that to me?"

Lucas arched a brow, "Audacity?"

Taking a step towards me, "even after all the truth huh?"

Another step, "how about I offer you something for the compensation"

I gulped as I hit the end of wall

What was Lucas going on about

Now standing this close to him I could smell his strong sandalwood cologne

Nervous I looked up into his beautiful green eyes, "Wh-what?"

Lucas smirked, tilting his head

His fingers touched my cheek slowly sliding down

A jolt of electricity passed though me as soon as Lucas fingers made contact with my skin, I closed my eyes feeling his warm breath on the side of my face

Was he going to kiss me?

My body was going crazy right now

"How about you spend a night with me and I'll pay you as much as you want" Lucas whispered huskily

As my brain processed his words

The haze I was in was broken

I opened my eyes and with all the force in my body I pushed Lucas away

My heart stung as tears made its way down my face

"Fuck you Lucas!" I yelled, tears leaking "fuck you!"

"Diane-" Lucas said his voice suddenly soft, he looked ashamed of his words

I raised my hand before Lucas could say anything further

"No" I said loudly "No Lucas Suvillian, not today! I've let you insult me, belittle me and say horrible things about me but not today. I refuse to allow you to humiliate and shame me that way"

More tears stung my eyes as I continued, "Do you even know what I went though that night? Do you Lucas? How do you think I felt when I woke up naked in another man's bed without any memory of what had happened? Most of all  do you know what I felt when I saw you that hurt expression on your face? How I felt when you had such little trust in me?"

I pushed him again, "I gave you five years to grieve! Were five years not enough for you?"

Lucas tried coming closer but pushed his away every time he did

The walls felt as if they were going to close in on me

I kept on take deep breaths

"I loved you Lucas, really loved you" I whispered "And what did you do with my love? You broke my heart then ripped it out of my chest"

We stood in the middle of his office silently looking at each other

Lucas's expression looked pained

"So you never fucked Alex all along? Or you didn't help him steal the money so you can open your own little business?" Lucas said finally "How do you expect me to have trust in you when all the evidence says otherwise? How?" He yelled taking my shoulders in her arms and shaking me

Lucas thinks I've been cheating on him with Alex all along?

Not just only that night?

He thinks I helped Alex steal money from his firm?

To open my business?

I took a few steps back, shaking my head and trying to grasp for air

My head started spinning and I could feel everything closing up on me

My only instinct was to run

Run far away and never see this man's face

"So it'll always be like this huh?" I said "Every time a different thing to blame me for, to insult me and degrade me"

More steps and deep breaths, "You never really trusted me did you?"

I laughed bitterly, "you know what? hating me is easier for you than loving me, because loving me would require you to put your trust in me and so much more.."

I put my hand on the door handle and opened it, "Today you took the very last of my dignity from me and I'll never forgive you for this"

Leaving Lucas behind I ran out of his office

My face steaming with endless tears

I didn't even know where to go but I just had to get out of here

I felt like I couldn't breath anymore

As the lift started closing

I saw Lucas running towards me, a worried expression on his face "Diane wai-"

His voice was muted out by the elevator closing

Everything that had just happened in a short moment of time replayed in my mind

Ding

The door opened and I rushed myself out of the building

As soon as the cold air hit my skin I lost my balance

My vision slowly blacking on me

And my breath ragged

I took a few small steps and suddenly I came crashing down

Darkness taking over me