Loving Diane

16

The entire ride home was silent. No words were exchanged between us

I kept on looking outside my window as we passed by all the familiar places

The car had stopped. I picked up my bag ready to get down but as I was going to open the door. It got locked

I looked at Lucas who looked back at me, his eyes pinning me on spot

"Open the door Lucas!" I finally let my anger surface

"We need to talk first" He said

I raised my brow at him, "You want to talk?" I laughed "I know there no way in hell I'm going to hear an apology from you so cut the crap"

"You're right" he said "I'm not going to apologise! But there's definitely a few things I wang to clear out"

"I'm listening" I said looking away

"I don't want to see you near any of my family members. Yes that includes Ella and Isabell. If we learned to live without you I'm sure we can continue doing the same" he said, his voice booming

My eyes became watery

Even after being the innocent one he still doesn't want me to be any close to his family?

He really is a heartless bastard

I looked directly into his eyes. Showing him the tears and the rage inside me

"After all that's happened you still have the fucking audacity to tell me to STAY AWAY from your family?" I replied, my voice getting louder "have you even looked closely to your family? You're falling apart! You don't have good relations with you dad, your sister and even your own mom! This hate inside you has changed you. You've distanced yourself from your family! You think I can't see though this cold hearted facade of yours?"

"Don't you dare talk about MY RELATION with my family! That's my fucking business and I suggest you stick your your own business" he replied

I laughed, "yeah right your relation with your family is your business! You don't even know what's actually happening do you? Have you seen Ella? Have you noticed her pale skin and the bags under her eyes? Don't you see how your father has aged? How his eyes don't have the spark they used to? You've lost everyone around you and you still believe you have the right to tell me to stay away from them?"

I couldn't take a single minute being in the car with this man. Unlocking the door I got down and was about to go inside when a strong grip pulled me by the waist

Lucas had not trapped me between the jeep and himself

"What are you talking about? What is it that I don't know?" He asked, his eyes confused

I tried pushing him away but who was I kidding. He didn't even move

"Oh so now I have your attention?" I said

"Just tell me DAMMIT!" He said, his voice louder

I swallowed the lump in my throat

"Hade has been cheating on Ella since the day they got married!" I said

"What did you say?" He asked, his voice now a little softer

I could see hurt in Lucas's eyes.

Hurt that he hadn't been there for his baby sister

Hurt that he let this happen

"Now you realise why I've been so close to your family? Because you being their son weren't with them! You've allowed the hatered for me change you. God I don't even know if you hate me or is it that you hate yourself? Don't apologise and don't forgive me for something I didn't even do but at least don't punish your family for it! Do you know Ella has been talking anti depressants for an year? And above all you even stopped my letters being sent to Ella! I SHOULD BE THE ONE NOT FORGIVING YOU!" I said, letting the tears fall down

Lucas stared at me for a while, "I hate you"

Three words was all he said

I

Hate

You

Why?

What had I ever done do deserve this treatment?

Holding my head high I replied back, "You know the last time I saw you I thought we were so different from each other but every time I meet you I find out that we have much in common. Don't be so proud of your self Lucas Sullivan because I hate you too! I hate you with every ounce of blood in my body and every cell in my body! Remember the last time I saw you at the church? I told you I wish I'm witness to how Alex deceives you? Well guess what I've witnessed your fall and to say I'm fucking happy would be an understatement"

Pushing him away I walked inside without glancing back

Locking the door behind me, I broke down into tears

You hurt me years ago Lucas Sullivan

But now you've ripped my heart and thrown it away.