My Love

Im sorry

"Th-the last time I saw that look is when you c-called m-me in t-tears," he began sobbing. "I-it was the end of f-fall, you called and you were saying to come over because nobody was home and you didn't want be alone. I remember running 5 blocks in the cold with just a t-shirt and shorts and tennis shoes. I remember using my key to get inside and running up the stairs to hear your sobbing coming from the restroom and your screams. Those high pitched scream still ring in my ears every night. I remember busting down the door to see blood dripping from your wrists and you repeating 'I'm sorry, I sorry, I sorry' and you were shaking. Not from being cold but from the crying y-you kept saying 'my chest, my chest I can't breathe." He looked at me and I felt my eyes tearing up remember December 3rd. He looked down and continued, "I remember fumbling and dropping my phone calling 911 I remember screaming into my phone saying 'I need a ambulance at 557 Heaven Point Avenue.' I remember holding your hand on the way to the hospital and you crying, and gasping for air, and your wrists bleeding and your red eyes that filled with tears and your eyes looked like glass they were so filled with tears that they looked like glass. I remember the wailing of the ambulance. You screaming 'it's so loud so loud make it stop!' and your eyes looking left and right and up and down" He gasped for air and I was full like crying and he kept talking like what the actual fuck? "I remember getting to the hospital and them taking you away from me and you screaming 'Logan, Logan!' The doctor finally came to get me and I sat by your side that whole night. They put like some kind of bandages on your wrists and wrapping them. I remember staying up all night and I sang to you and you slept and I held your cold hands and tried my best to keep them warm in that cold room. When you woke up you looked at me cluelessly and said 'what happened.' I explained it and you looked at your wrists and just stared at the bandages."
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Ms.Johnson finally stopped him because I was crying like crazy. Jack saw me and hugged me and said "it's okay kiddo" my whole life that I knew him at least he called me kiddo because he was 5 months older than me. I was happy with the nickname. He hugged me and I cried on his shoulder, I felt his head like look around. I guess he saw Logan because he said under his breath "ew not you."
I turned around and saw Logan who gave me a hug and squeezed me and said "im sorry baby, I love you."
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I heard a deep voice coming from the office I had heard this voice before but I don't remember when then it all came back. The man said, "Hi im here for my daughter." I did a full turn to see a well built man about 6'2 very light skin and blue eyes. I walked towards and questioned, "Dad?"