My Love

Days of black

November 26 came and went and I still didn't wake up. The next day was Thanksgiving, Logan stayed with me and ate a turkey sandwich. I felt so bad for making him stay with me and not allowing him to eat a proper Thanksgiving meal. Logan was all I could ask for he was sweet, funny, caring, and best of all he was mine.
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Before I knew it was December 1st, and still no idea of when I would or when I could wake up. Logan didn't sound so good anymore, he cried more and more often. He would say things like, "maybe it wasn't meant to be" or "it's my fault I should have paid more attention" or even, "if you don't make it then why should I." I had to find some way out of this darkness but I felt like I was in one of those never ending hallways.

There was a light at the end of the hall that I was so scared to go near because what id it was the portal to heaven or to hell? I don't know where it goes and I didn't plan on finding out anytime soon. I was in deep thought when I heard sobbing, I knew it was Logan because that's all he has been doing since I was here. "Addie baby, they are saying you may never wake up, please Addison I need you to wake up, your family needs you to wake up, this isn't good for you, you're missing school baby.....I know that's not a big deal to you but if you don't pass this year you won't be a senior next year. I really wanted us to walk the stage to get our diplomas together, I had well I have so many plans for that day. I can't wait for then actually. The doctors said you many not be able to hear me talk to you, I want to tell you but I'm scared what if you can hear. Is there some kind of sign that you can show me, show us that you're still in there."

Then a fucking December miracle happen I felt my hand. It had been the first time in months that I could actually feel my hand. From my hand I felt my arm, then my whole right side then my left, but my face was still numb. Logan sighed and grabbed my hand and I squeezed his hand. I wasn't sure if he felt it so I did it again and again until he gasped. "Addison oh my fucking gosh Addison. Did that just happen if it did do it again" I once again squeezed his hand and I heard him laugh, "oh my fuck, oh my fuck nurse!" I heard feet running in. "Yes sir can I help you?" I heard him, he was so happy, "Yes, she just squeezed my hand I know she did, look, Addison do it again please baby." I squeezed his hand like he said to. I heard him sniffling and I knew he was crying but not, because he was sad because he was happy that I was slowly getting myself back. I knew that his nose was running and he was probably rubbing his snot on his sleeve.

"Logan? It's Maria, I'm here so you can go home for a little bit. Oh, I found this in Addison's binder in the front pocket. It's for you I think.....well it dose say "Logan" on it in cursive." I knew exactly what it was. It was a letter, well actually quite a few letters, that I had written over the short 3 months Logan and I had been together. The most recent one was written the night before I had gotten into this bed.

"Dear Logan,
We have been together for quite some time now. I'm very happy with you I love you quite allot. To be honest, I didn't believe we would last this long due to me being terrible at relationships. I thought I would have fucked it up majorly by now but guess what I haven't yet. I don't want anything to ruin this. I just want you know that if anything were to happen to me I would want you to kill all my enemies, because it would most likely be their fault for me dying or being hurt. I love you alot Logan.

- Yours truly
Addison."

I felt a tear of his touch my hand "it's was now or never Addison." I opened my eyes and picked up my hand and moved it so slowly and quietly towards his face and removed the tear. "Hush baby, hush please don't cry sweetheart please don't cry. I can't stand to see my love cry." He removed his face from his hands and just looked at me. "A-Addison?" I smiled at the way he said my name, "yes Logan." He began crying even more and hugged me and kissed me and I kissed back and hugged him. He ran out of the room then automatically came back in, "I'll be right back I promise." Just like he promised he returned with my father and Maria and Luke and a few nurses.

Once the nurses left the doctor came in and talked to my family and Luke sat on my legs. "Addison I thought I would never get to see you again." I laughed a little, "I thought I would never get to see you again either little one." Logan kissed me again, "the two kittens are perfectly well and they will be waiting for you once you get home baby." I laughed at the thought of the kittens. The had been so small the last time I saw them, I wonder if they had grown, well of course they did I had been out for quite a while.
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Maria said that the doctor said I could get out of here in a week then I wouldn't be able to go back until after winter break. They were going to get a tutor to catch up so I wouldn't fail the 11th grade. I smiled at Logan when she said that they wouldn't let me fail the 11th grade. I think Logan knew hey I smiled at him because he touched the back of his head which he only did when he got nervous.