My Love

Broken Messages

On the way to class Jack was in front of me due to him having long ass legs. He turned around to see me about 9 people behind him and he stopped at looked at me and waited. I stopped about 4 people away and began singing as I was walking, "You look so perfect standing there." He began laughing not because of my singing because I hated that song. I finally stood next to him and we were at the door to my 4th period and he walked in and he walked in front of me and sat at the desk next to the one I always sit at. He was singing and I was smelling the flowers. He looked at me and sang the words, "I love you Addie." I felt really bad because I wanted to say I love you too but then what if he loved me, loved me. Also my whole life I had been preparing for the moment. Ever since I was in like Kinder I wanted to be with Jack, then I met Logan. Well now all I want to be with is with Logan. Now that finally Jack said he loved me and it's to late. Then Mr.Peters (the councilors helper) cam on the intercom saying, "I need Addison, Kevin, and Jackson to the auditorium." My first thought was yes I don't have to feel guilty for not saying I love you back. Then I remember Jack's full name was Jackson. Jack walked close by me then Logan as I walked down the stairs was staring at me. I had my flowers in my left hand and my binder in the right. My Vera Bradley purse was thrown over my shoulder. Logan grabbed my binder and I held onto my flowers. He hugged me and as I was walking away he grabbed me hand. He pulled me in close and kissed me. He held my hand the whole walk to the auditorium. Then Logan opened the doors to the auditorium and I walked in to the shitty councilor. I swear this woman is crazy as hell. I spent my whole 9 years at Hollow Wood Academy (the school is from pre-kinder to 12th grade) wondering where she got her degree. She had lately been reading The Fault In Our Stars and I have read the book about 1,000 times and she began acting an awful lot like Patrick. If you haven't read the book he is this guy that leads the support group. Okay so every Thursday we (Me, Kevin, Logan, Jack, Kassandra, Mariana, and ms crazy I mean Ms.Catrina) meet to help each other though tough times. Anyway I'm here because I have depression and apparently from what ms.crazy had to say I need "help" but I don't. Logan just started last week and he has depression and Jack had social anxiety. From what she says we all are here to listen and talk to people that "care" which none of them really do.