*LIKE A MOTH DRAWN TO FLAME*
((flashback))
Shots of gun ranged on my ears as I dashed upstairs and burst in my room and hid beneath the bed trembling with fear. I could hear the laugh and footsteps approaching my room as I sank deeper under my bed h...
Blinding white light hit her from all angles, invading her vision with unnatural luminosity. If someone ever stuck their head in a pile of snow, this, she supposed, would be what it looked like.
her father lay on the ground, his face closed in a grimace, is skin pale and clammy. he was dead, eyes fixed and vacant. nur crouched, one hand over his still chest. He was gone. She picked up his hand, so cold and pale, touching it to her newly wet cheek, closing her eyes for just a moment.She shook her head mutely.
NUR POV
There is more than one type of death. I died some time ago. I didn't mean to. My heart still beats, though only as a cold pump, working despite my spark of life being extinguished. My world is icy, every day overcast no matter what the weather is outside.
Happiness lurks as a memory, every day feeling more like an illusion and slipping further out of reach. Every face I see is as welcome as a gun and their smiles are the bullets - everything they do is just another heap of dirt over my mental coffin.i didn't deserve this.Tears stained my cheeks, making my eyes glassy as i whispered goodbye to my family.
There was the noise of a key in the lock and then the door swung open, not slowly but fast and with enough force to drive the door into the plaster opposite. i stood, my breathing suspended and my hands crimson with fathers blood.
i felt someone put a hand on my shoulder i was too tired to know who it was. "lets go" asher said he encircled his hands on me and held me tightly.i stare deeply in his raven eyes. words seemed to left me and my heart fell silent. he asked no question and i was so tired..i insisted asher to to take me back home. It had been one hell of a rough day.
I know tensing against the shaking of my limbs is useless but I do it instinctively, trying to suppress for a few more moments what I know I cannot.
The darkness swirled around me curled form on my bed. The silence echoing in my ears was the constant white noise that never shut up. my head swam in the fire burning inside, the only smouldering embers of a time where there had been other presences with me, around me.
But now, the void had been slowly filled with a cold, howling storm of fear that refused to ever let up. i felt completely and utterly alone in my mind, body, soul, and most of all, entirely alone in the world.
i got up and walked towards ashers room. i gently knocked on the door and heard him 'come in'. he was talking to someone on his phone as i entered and his face was masked with surprise when he saw me "Nur..is everything okay?" he asked politely. he looked tired and frenzy, he was wearing a grey t-shirt with a under Armour shorts and his hair all messy. i slowly nodded and sat on the sofa."i..its just i was scared and..felt. like i needed some company." he nodded and lit up a cigarette and gave me one too.
i took a deep drag and exhaled the smoke into the air, watching it disappear in the cloud of smoke."how are you?" he asked. i looked at him momentarily."i dont know..i..its like The emptiness is always there; I consider myself decent at hiding it, masking it with normal human emotions. No one is going to ask me why I'm smiling. It hides everywhere, this emptiness, in the closet, the cupboards. There isn't any getting away from it." a stray tear stained my cheek."i feel so lost asher" i look at him."i dont know what to do..please help me" i hiccuped.
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His eyes showed the kind of gentle concern my mother used to have. He laid his hand lightly on my shoulder, and instead of flinching, I was soothed by it. He left his hand there and spoke with such a soft voice I felt his words calming me more by the way they were said than the actual words. It felt as if I were wrapped in a blanket of his caring. How could I not consider my actions now, now that I could see how profoundly they effected him too.
ASHERS POV
I felt an urge to do something, to comfort her, but also myself. In a moment I pressed my lips against her, felt her body loosen and arms touch my shoulders.the kiss was silent and gentle. Then we hovered right there, quite soundless for so long, simply feeling each other's presence.
NURS POV
he wrapped his arms around me in a moment and I let my head rest upon his chest. "everything will heal..and..like you i lost my family too..at first it was painful but i dont know but at sometime..i got used to it"
"humans are weird arnt they?" i asked
"yes..and..its crazy how we sometime feel" i smiled.
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