*LIKE A MOTH DRAWN TO FLAME*
((flashback))
Shots of gun ranged on my ears as I dashed upstairs and burst in my room and hid beneath the bed trembling with fear. I could hear the laugh and footsteps approaching my room as I sank deeper under my bed h...
I've been lost for so long it's what I'm used to, kinda like a person who gets used to being beat I suppose. It's not that I like it, quite the opposite. Being lost sucks. i felt lost in his lies. The only thing that was there after searching for so long was betrayal. It slowly seeped in how much of a fool I had been, living in my own dream world. I floated away from the fake promises and reality until I was just a lost star.
My eyes drip with tears.Moment by moment, they fall. Salty drops fall from my chin, drenching my shirt. by this time i must be use to the heartbreak and hurt but This heartbreak feels cold. It feels like concrete drying in my chest. This heartbreak was unexpected, as they always are - top of the world one minute and cut down the next.
i grip tightly to chains i have been held captivated.i gripped on so tightly despite the fact that my palms where sore and burned.
"NUR!" I alarmingly stare at ahad who was tied across me.
"i have been calling you since forever... are you okay?"
"im sorry" i mumbled through my tears.
"whats wrong nur?" he asked sympathetically. i averted my gaze and fiddled with my fingers.
"you know..all my life i...i..only gained Misery.Sadness.sorrow.dejection and now this unearned revenge..to be honest ahad...i actually really loved asher...i really thought that he was the one..the one i would feel secure with..turns out Only one I love so much is my assassin" A tear rolled onto my cheek, but I didn't care;
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" sometimes a warrior of war take off their armour once in a while. then you see glimpses of the man underneath - but then they work to cover it up, hide their true self from enemies eyes. you have to stay focus nur" ahad replied.
"i...cant...it just hurt so much this time"
"listen to me nur..the only way we can stay alive is by following what he says...hes bipolar..a psychopath! -this is going to be painful for you but..after this you'll be free" i just stare blankly at him. i cant..i cant stand ashers presence..his betrayal really got me." i promise"
"this is your only chance nur..please help yourself..help me.. dont let him destroy you..you have to stay strong!take that part that is broken and make it a ghost, a ghost that falls away and becomes nothing." deep down i know i had to be determined, to focus and try to be strong and escape this dark crisis. slowly i nodded.
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i now stood in front of mirror... a man put in a transparent camera lens in my eyes and ahad secured a hidden microphone underneath my black leather jacket. " how does this work?" ahad was cut off before he could say anything.
"its a type of a hidden camera its much more safer than the pinhole one..but you have to be careful not to make direct eye contact with the opponent." asher interjected.
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"the instructions are very simple nur..your'e his daughter eh would not hurt you...befriend him get in your fathers office..mix this drug in his drink he'll be knocked out for approximately 20 minutes..rummage through his files and document case and pick up the green dossier with ARK written in capital letters..and press this button underneath your microphone chip we'll be notified and taking your time carefully get out of the building" asher explained.
"are you out of your mind ASHER!" ahad lunged towards asher but his guards restrained him."this is so dangerous! there is no way shes walking into those thugs!" asher smirked.
"i'll do it..hes my father he..would never...hurt me" i replied.
"Now thats the spirit!" asher said.
"YOUR'E SICK!" ahad screamed and asher motioned the guards to take him out.
i stood in front of asher..gazing in his eyes.." You said that you loved me, but that was all a lie, wasn't it? All I wanted from you was your love, but once you got me in bed a few times you threw me out.You said you cared and loved me, but you didn't..you know i feel utter sympathy for an asshole like you..the reason i agreed for this shit is so that you could have fucking peace then..so you can get lost in the darkness you belong!"
he held my face in his hands..."this is what i deserve nur...you're too good for me i dont want to hurt you anymore..Growing up has been such a baptism of fire for me this mindless past that latches itself to me has greater power..i cant let it go it feeds on me on my future and my present..im sorry" taking a deep breath i left the room..
"just promise me one thing asher" i took his silence as his approval.."please dont hurt ahad..just make him leave the mafia he still have heart..he still cares and he deserve more than this" i waited for his response.
