*LIKE A MOTH DRAWN TO FLAME*
((flashback))
Shots of gun ranged on my ears as I dashed upstairs and burst in my room and hid beneath the bed trembling with fear. I could hear the laugh and footsteps approaching my room as I sank deeper under my bed h...
"Every time I reach out with love to someone up there, someone I hope can throw a rope, the floor sinks a little lower, jolting my body as it stops - crushing me with a new pain,another abandonment."
"This despair is a heady blackness; the ways forward I had thought possible have vanished to black, not blocked, but like they were never there at all"
I paced around the room..my body my existence was restless.
"Hey, hey calm down asher" Dr.luis, my personal psychiatrist said.
" You want me to linger on calmess...but Dr. I can't keep control on myself...I committed a mistake I regret that but this guilt is crushing me!" I breathed heavily
"Take deep long breath..and exhale.. maintain your composure...only you have control over yourself"
I sighed heavily and sat on the sofa opposite clutching my hair.
"What's wrong with me?" I asked
" You're completely fucked up asher..." Dr.luis scoffed. " You're sick..you suffer with OCD, Borderline personality disorder, you're bipolar..and God knows what"
"What should I do?" I cried.
"I'm trying to help you..I really am asher but you're not helping yourself..you keep on blaming yourself for every shit that happened...you need to forgive yourself..take control."
"Its better that..that you spend some time in rehabilitation center" dr.luis suggested
" You think I'm a fucking psychopath!" I scoffed.
She took off her square shaped glasses and looked at me with her striking blue eyes.
" I can't help you if you don't help yourself asher!"
" I don't fucking need your help!" I growled and stormed out of her office.
..
I punched the wall in front of me and kept on punching it until my hand bled.
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"Ahhhhhhhhhh" I screamed in agony and lay down on the dirty basement floor. I closed my eyes and I saw her...my celestial Nur..he beautiful laughing face came before my eyes..I got up and called Antonio..." I have a job for you..mi amigo.find her!" I said in an inhuman voice.
I growled and got up and continued punching the wall..
