*LIKE A MOTH DRAWN TO FLAME*
((flashback))
Shots of gun ranged on my ears as I dashed upstairs and burst in my room and hid beneath the bed trembling with fear. I could hear the laugh and footsteps approaching my room as I sank deeper under my bed h...
whenever She gazed into my soul; her eyes of liquid amber scrutinizing things inside of which I could only dream of seeing in myself. She was a mystery. A dangerously beautiful mystery, and I was ensnared in the trap which she'd set.
Longingly, I devoured her face with my eyes, wishing with all my being that I could reach out and brush my hand against her perfectly shaped cheekbones, or under the feathers of her thick, dark lashes. But I refrained from doing so, and continued to succumb to the endless torture of watching her without being able to touch.i knew i loved her but i had to let go.quietly i got off the bed she stirred and snuck deeper in the blanket.
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In that moment of loss when i lost my family my world collapsed - where there was light became shadows, the pain coming and going like waves on frigid sand.
The pain I carry in my chest is inexplicable. Seeing you get away from me hurts a lot. Even though I want to hold you and keep you by my side for a longer time, it seems like you keep drifting farther and farther away from me.
As much as I know it's the best for me, for you and for everyone, I didn't expect you to get out of my life someday.
I'll never forget the moments you laughed with me, cried with me, helped me. Different from the others, I don't regret any of those memories. Thank you for everything. I hope you find your happiness out there.
i peered at her one last time before leaving her..when you'll wake up..everything in your past will dissolve .
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6 MONTHS LATER
i woke startled..trembling i reach to switch on the side lamp..my lips quivered and my body shook i took a deep breath and cried.
The nightmare was always the same. Paralyzed, naked, cold. The masked man would come closer with the knife, making sweeping movements to a music only he could hear. He would be closer, then further away and then closer again.
"you okay?" my roomate Ida asked. she come closer and cupped my face."another nightmare?"
i looked at her.."Riddle me this. How can I call it a nightmare, if it doesn't leave my presence when I awake?" i mumbled.
"okay calm down..i'll get your medicine" i absently nodded.
You have become a silhouette, as if you walked from a photograph and left behind blackness. There is an ache that comes and goes, always returning in quiet moments.When you are with me the pain stops, or at least it once did.
"here" ida sighed. i quickly gulped the pills. "your'e ruining whatever is left of you..do you like being in constant pain!...it hurts me to see struggle like this every night"
"dr. Adryan called..you've been missing your session with him and right now nur im hundred percent sure your'e doing this deliberately." i was quiet.
"say something for god sake!..i tired of watching you like this..its been fucking 6 months now!"
"please leave me alone! i need some space ida."
she hugged me.."i care for you so much nur...i treat you like my younger sister"
tears streamed down my face."..just..promise me one thing..you wont miss your session with dr adryan..please do it for me"
i stared at her and kissed her cheek."i promise."
IDA
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