TWISTED SHADOWS

CHAPTER 10-PREGNANT

Kyle sat on the hospital bed with Alicia as he waited for her to wake up, thinking about the events of the past hour. He knew she was in pain. He could see the suffering all over her, especially now that the doctor had confirmed she was pregnant. That was what was off about her. The sadness she tried to coat that had become an expression of who she was now. A pitiful feeling again rose in his heart for her, and he reprimanded the feeling. Sure, she'd hurt him over the last few weeks but he could do better than feel pity for a woman he'd learnt to love. No. She..deserved better, even if all she could cause him was pain, immense pain. He took her hand in his, hoping the gesture who comfort her in her sleep filled with radiating nightmares.

Movements along her body made him realise she was awake and as she turned to him, she immediately jerked her hands of his.
"What am I...what are you...wh.." She couldn't form a coherent question. Her head felt blank.

"You fainted." Kyle started, helping her answer questions that she couldn't seem to form as he folded his arm over his chest. "And the doctors ran a check on you" He steered at her keenly, waiting for a change in her expression. When he saw none he continued. "They said you suffered from malnourishment," he sighed. "In less than two weeks Alicia. You dehydrated yourself. You starved yourself. What were you thinking?" Everything clicked in her mind and she rememberedd the picture of her father, gasping, taking deep breathes as she seemed to be lacking the more she took.
"Alicia?" He tried to help and she stopped him, as her breathing came back to normal.
"Please Kyle. Leave me alone. I can't do this. It's too much"

"Then let me be here for you, like you were for me. Alicia please don't be stubborn at this time. You need me, you need someone..."

"I don't need you. What part of you suffocate me don't you get?"

"I get ok Alicia!" He yelled unintentionally. "What you did broke me and I know there's no chance for us now. But right now,you need me, and if you think I'm some self centre maniac that would let you wallow in your pain alone then you really don't know me."

"I know you!" She bursted into tears. "I know your heart. You're too good for me Kyle. And I'm too broken for you. You need someone who can fix you properly. Someone who won't add to your pain."

"Sure sounded the other way when you called." She stared at him and he sighed. "Alicia you were there for me when I needed you most, please just allow me to be here for you, now."

"I don't want you around me!!" She shouted, unable to control the tone of her voice. He stared at her in realization. "Please, go out. I want you to get out."

"Why?" There was hurt laced in his voice and Alicia almost broke into tears again.

"Be..because you are suffocating me. I can't breathe. Just leave me. Leave my life alone." Kyle nodded at her and stormed out, pain and anger laced all over him.
It was the right thing to do. She'd giving in into the fate that they could never be happy together, not when Lucas Smith was out to make her life hell. He deserved better. Not a broken piece of wall-pain that she had turn to be. She couldn't live knowing he managed her for the rest of his life. He deserved more.

Kyle's habit of storming through everything seemed to have resurfaced as he didn't care what he bumped into, even a lady who was carrying some equipment and tools in her hands. The sound of falling metals and instrument brought him out of his storm walk as he looked over at her while she bent down to pick up her stuffs.
"Sorry," was all he could mutter as he joined her in picking her the items

"It's ok. Accidents of storm walks usual happen." He smiled at her as they stood.

"I'm Brenda, a psychiatrist. If you need help with some uncomfortable habits, you could make an appointment. I'm always here"