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(Changed her character)
I was sitting in my apartment alone. I felt so empty inside i want my old life ,I got off the couch and went into my bedroom picking my phone up
I haven't talked to nobody from the group in months and it's kinda crazy to me how everything turned out "it's all my fault"I sighed
I went to my contacts and tried to call Caleb phone but he didn't answer. Me losing him was heartbreaking for me I let my own selfish ways get in between us and our friends
He cut me off told me that I was crazy and a delusional bitch. At the time I honestly didn't think that I was doing anything wrong. I was letting other people get to my head which cause me to act out like that
Once I lost Caleb I realized that me acting like that wasn't hurting just the people that I used to be close with but also myself .
A lot has happened over the past few months I had a miscarriage two weeks after the whole club situation. I didn't even know I was pregnant but I guess that was my punishment from god
A tear dropped on my hand knocking me out of my own thoughts "why was you so stupid mia"I yelled to myself
I've been going through it people probably think she just a fake delusional hoe,but in all honesty I thought jada was talking bad about me behind my back
Well at least that's what people was telling me.i shouldn't have believed them I should've just asked her straight up like a woman
I went to Snapchat too see what everybody was doing and I saw jada post a pic of her belly im so happy for her ,I went to Caleb snap and saw a picture of him gripping a female thigh
You could only see his hand and her thigh. "God why are you doing this to me I just want it to stop"I went to my bathroom grabbing a pill bottle
Your a dumb hoe you don't deserve to live
Kill yourself want nobody care
Everybody hate you
You even hate yourself
Die
These voices in my head been telling me this for a whole month straight. I've been shaking them off but I can't no more I just want them to stop.
I took all the pills out the bottle and took them at the same time. I watch myself in the mirror dropped to the floor with foam coming from my mouth
