back and forth (damien haas)

~ℂ𝕒𝕟 𝕀 𝕥𝕣𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦?~

Flashback boyyyyyyy
"I'm, sorry dude." Olivia says, walking back inside. "I think Olivia is right, though," Courtney says. "You have to just talk to her, Dame." Shayne says. He's right I have to find her. "Ok, I'm going." I say and leave. Sam, Boze and Olivia are in the couch laughing. "Hey, Sam can we talk?"
OUUUU BACK TO IT...
Sam turns to me and walks behind the couch. Boze follows her and I say "Alone, sorry Boze,". Sam whispers to tell her it's ok so Boze reluctantly sits down with Olivia again, looking very nervous.
~Sam's PoV~
I follow Damien into his shared room with the boys, luckily no one is in there. I wonder what's up with with Wes. He's been so quiet and collected. He sits on a bed and I sit next to him. "I uh- Sam I-" he says. He takes a breath then speaks up again. "Look Sam, I know your frustrated. I get why. I know why. I'm the reason why. Ok, so on the way to the restaurant I have no idea what was said but what I do know is that I couldn't keep my eyes off you when I was talking to Shayne." He pauses and takes a deep breath, not looking at me but at the floor.
Meanwhile Boze, Olivia, and Courtney make their way to the door to listen in on Sam and Damien.
~3rd person PoV~
"Shayne saw me and took me to the bathroom saying that I looked stupid. He told me that I was being dumb. So I held myself together and tried my best to not be all weird. We got to the car after the night and Courtney said something like 'So you don't like Sam anymore' Shayne got upset exclaiming that it was my feelings which led to Courtney, i'm raising her voice. I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I was uncomfortable, I didn't want to, I don't know express my feelings for you in front of everybody. There was a fear of rejection." Damien finishes. "I-" Sam says. "It's totally fine your not interested, I get it." Damien says standing up and running out the door. Sam looks dumbfounded. Damien didn't give her a chance to speak. Boze, Olivia, and Courtney appeared into the doorway. Boze tried to come over to comfort her but she couldn't. Sam knew Damien was hurting. Sam didn't want to see him. Sam ran to her room, the lights were off. She climbed to her bunk and laid, curled in a ball under the comforter. Why? Damien hadn't let her speak. She wanted to cry, to get upset and talk to him. Get up, Sam. Get up. You could be with him right now, why don't you go find him? Sam's brain was racing, she could get herself to move a muscle.
Damien was similar to Sam. He wanted to go find her.  He knew she didn't feel the same way. Why? He knew  why, he's insecure. He has things he hates about himself and loves but mostly hatred. Hatred for himself. He ran outside, to the cold. He ran to the bench. The bench outside the lodge. The bench had snow and ice frozen over on it and it was freezing. He didn't care. He didn't care. Does he care? He sits there, thinking, not about anything in particular but just things. It's cold, freezing for that matter, but Damien just feels numb, inside and out.
Boze wanted to find Sam. Courtney told her when she's upset, it's best to leave her alone. Boze couldn't handle the fact that Sam was hurting and there was nothing she can do about it. Everyone was in the living room watching a movie but Boze couldn't pay attention. Some people asked where were Sam and Damien and they just answered that they were tired. Boze was so grateful for Sam, she had helped her settle into and Smosh and honestly became one of her best friends.
Courtney knew what Sam was doing right now. Thinking over her life and curled up in a ball. Courtney was worried for Sam but she knew she would be alright. Courtney could tell how uneasy Boze was, Courtney knew why but it's alright. Sam or Damien will eventually find the other and they will realize what is the issue. Courtney was of course still worried, not as much as Boze, though.
Wes was very upset. Joven could tell. Wes, Wes has a secret. He told Joven, somewhat. He was feeling really down. He had to find Sam, he had too.
"Hey, Court, where's Sam?" Wes whispers to Courtney. "She's sleeping." Court responds. Wes can tell that Courtney is lying, somewhat. He swiftly heads upstairs, without anyone seeing him. He heads past his bedroom to the girls one, softest opening the door. "Sam?" Wes whispers, loud enough for her to hear. Sam reluctantly comes out from under her comforter and gets down the ladder. She looks like she was finally able to cry, as her eyes were red and puffy. "Are you ok?" Wes asks softly, he takes his thumb and brushes a tear from under her eye. Sam i taken back a bit. Why is Wes here? What would he want? "It's just-" Sam stops, "Can I trust you?" she whispers. He nods, Sam walks over to the un-used bed and pats for him to sit. "Damien told me he had feelings for me, I was about to tell him that I do too. I hesitated for a second because, I'm not sure why. I kinda just did, he took it as I wasn't interested and left. I'm not sure where he is, I'm not sure what to do. I wish someone would of come up here to tell me it's ok, that everything will be fine." Sam explains, she puts her head in her hands. Wes gently lifts her chin with his finger and says "It's ok Sam, everything will be alright." He says. Sam pulls him into a hug, she starts to softly cry into his arm. Wes smiles to himself and pulls her in tighter. They stay like that for a few minutes. Wes feels powerful, he feels better now, maybe, just maybe he'll have his chance. Wes pulls her away and leans in for a kiss. Sam's not sure what to do, Wes is is buddy, she pulled away. "I'm sorry Wes, I-" Sam tries but Wes just shakes his head. "No, don't be sorry Sam, I'm so stupid, trying to make everything about me, I'll just go." Wes gets up and walks out just as Damien had. Sam sighs and goes back to her bed, this time she had two things in her mind. How she had just friend-zoned Wes and she hurt Damien's feelings. Wes walks to his room, he didn't want to face anyone. He tried his best to sleep, it didn't work.
Damien was still outside, contemplating going back in. He walked through the door to the lodge. Some people turned to asks questions but he ignored, he was tired and wanted to sleep. He walked in to find Wes laying in his bed, staring at the ceiling. "Hey, bud." Damien says, laying down. We turned to him, Wes felt angry, betrayed, sad, depressed. He wanted to blame it on Sam and Damien, but that would be unfair. It was his own self at fault, his own heart. "Hey, where have you been?" Wes asks. "Uh, you know, outside in the freezing cold, because I'm a sad boy." Damien reply's light heartedly but true. "Why would that be?". "Can I trust you, Wes?" Damien asks. Wes internally smiles. If Wes can't have her, why not help her get the guy she wants. "Of course, dude!" Wes answers, he sits up and pats the seat next to him. Damien sits down, and explains "I like Sam, I really do, I told her so earlier today. She doesn't feel the same way and i'm not sure what to do." Wes responds with "Did she tell you directly?". Damien widens his eyes, "No, I- I left before she could say anything," Damien says. "Go, go talk to her." Wes says.

(JAN 10 2020)