back and forth (damien haas)

~𝕌𝕟𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕞𝕖~

Flashback
"Go, go talk to her." Wes says.
K backkk
~Sam's PoV~
I hear the door open. I don't expect to see Damien walk in. He looks different than earlier. I get down and he stays there for a second. "Um, Sam, I- I want to know what you would of um, said earlier, you know, like when I was talking to you." Damien says, nervously. I'm not sure what to say, he probably isn't interested anymore! I think we should just stay friends, I mean we're co-workers, it really wouldn't work, sorry Damien." I say. I want to scream, run, shout, but this was the right thing to do. Even if we did date it probably wouldn't work out then it would be awkward around after we break up. He looks down, "Yeah, your right. It's best, friends?" he says handing out his hand. "Best friends!" I say taking it. I smile he turns and heads out.
~Damien's PoV~
I head out of her room, Wes is going to be so disappointed. I walk into the room to find Wes not there but Shayne laying in his bed. "Hey, dude!" Shayne says sitting up. I put up a smile and waved to him. "Damien are you ok?" Shayne asks. "Uh, yeah I'm fine." I say trying to get him to leave me alone. "Damien I know you're not ok but, I'll leave you alone for now." He says. I get out of my room acknowledging him and heading back down to the couch. I see Sam sitting on the couch and there's a spot best to her free. I plop myself down best to her and she turns to me and smiles. As the movie continues I see Sam start to fall asleep. "Hey, Sam if your tired you can sleep on me," I whisper to her. "Thanks, Damien!" Sam whispers back then rests her head on my shoulder. Her face feels warm on my shoulder. I feel so comfortable I start to drift off myself.
~Courtney's PoV~
Awwww! When the movie ends me and Olivia get up to go to bed. I turn to get Sam but Damien and her are asleep on each other so I take the blanket, lay it on them. Before I go I pull out my phone and stop Olivia. "Look!" I loudly whisper to her. I point to them and she smiles and muffles her laugh. I put on my instagram a zoom in of them sleeping. I make sure not to make the lodge visible, because we are on a social media block. We need to make sure we don't post anything of the lodge, yet. I head to bed with Olivia and Boze talks to me. "Court, where's Sam?" she says. "You should go check yourself, just don't disturb it!" Olivia says then laughs. She looks confused and gets out of bed.
We follow Boze on her journey downstairs
I walk downstairs, confused. I look to the couch to see Damien's head and I get concerned. I go to the front of the couch and Sam is sleeping on damien's shoulder and Damien is resting his head on hers. I feel the feels. Aww! I head back up to them and start to laugh but then I stop myself. I hear footsteps behind me. I feel a figure hovering over me. I turn, "Hi, Boze!" Wes says. "What are you doing up, Wes?" I respond to him. "I can ask the same to you." he responds. "Ok well, I'm heading to bed, bye!" I say and go into the room.
We follow Wes on his journey for food
I go downstairs to the kitchen to find some food. I am surprised to find Damien and Sam sleeping in the couch. I think they worked out I guess. I find my food and head back up to my room to sleep.
The next morning ouuuu back to Sams PoV
I'm laying on the couch, alone. Did I fall asleep on the couch? Why didn't Courtney come to get me? I get up and head to my room to change. Everyone is still asleep so I just quietly and grab my clothes, head to the bathroom. I wash my face and get on new clothes. I creep out of the room and grab my phone. As I head downstairs I check my phone to find a million notifications on Instagram. "What?" I whisper to myself. I open them I scroll and scroll until I find the source; Courtney's story. I open the story and it's a picture of, oh! That's why they left me alone. Damien and I are sleeping. COURTNEY!! I'm gonna get her! "Hey, Sam, " I hear, I turn and it's Wes. "Hey, Wes! Have you seen Courtney's Instagram story?" I answer. He shakes his head. I pull up the photo and hold it up to him. He takes the phone and smiles. "Aww! That's kinda cute, right?" he says. "I guess, except for the fact that we aren't together, " I say. He hands it back and frowns. "Well, what can you do?" he says walking into the kitchen. "I can murder Courtney, right!" I say. He chuckles and shakes his head. I hear footsteps so I turn and see Damien coming down. "Hey, guys!" he says. "Speaking of the devil!" Wes says reaching into a cabinet. "What?" Damien says laughing. "Have you seen Courtney's story?" Wes says. "Oh, yeah, speaking of which, sorry Sam I woke up and I didn't wanna wake you up so I just left." Damien explains. He gives me a quick side hug and joins Wes in finding food. People start to trickle downstairs and soon enough Mrs. Miller herself shows up. "HEY JERK! Wassup!" I yell to her as she makes her way downstairs. "What's that for?" she asks. Damien starts laughing and walks over. He holds up his phone to show Courtney's own Instagram story. "Oh yeah, that, OOPS OK BYE" Courtney walks away. I glance over to Damien, but he's not there anymore, instead, Boze took his place. "Hi, Sam!!" she says. I smile and give her a side hug. I grab a bowl, as someone set up some sort of breakfast for this morning. I grab my food and sit down next to Courtney and Olivia.
Now it's the end of the day because nothing that important happens, ok!
Today we filmed 4 episodes of winter games. It's been a really tiring day. I just want to sleep but, we have dinner. Once dinner finishes I head upstairs. I have a hard time falling asleep even though I'm exhausted. I can't stop thinking about my mistake. I should of told Damien how I felt. How I can't fall asleep without thinking about his beautiful laugh and how I get butterflies in my stomach. It's too late. I blew it. I messed everything up. He told me how I feel. Why did I hesitate? Why didn't I tell him? Kiss him? Why? I'm so stupid. I messed up my life. He probably thinks I don't like him. That I never had feelings for him. What if he is beating himself up for it? Because of stupid me. I never deserved him anyway. He's probably better off without me. He deserves someone who's way better than me. Someone who's perfect and wonderful. Unlike me.
I've been tossing and turning for hours. I can't sleep. I tiptoe out of bed and head to the kitchen. I sit on the stool, staring at the counter. Waiting. Waiting for something. Someone. Somewhere.
~Damien's PoV~
Sam never liked me. I should of known. I had my hopes up for nothing. It's not her fault I get it. I'm not what she would want. She's so perfect and wonderful. Unlike me. I'm not going to sleep. What's the point? I head downstairs to the kitchen. I find Sam sitting there on the stool. She looks tired and generally upset. I sit down next to her. "Can't sleep?" I say. She looks up surprised but responds "I guess you can say that." she gives a small chuckle. It brings me a little warm to my heart. "You?" she says. "Yeah me too." I say. No one talks for a few minutes but the silence was sweet. At least, I thought it was sweet.
~Sam's PoV~
I wanted to tell him. Tell him I loved him and that even though I've known him for a month, I've fallen hard. Courtney would know I don't crush easily but when I do, it's deep. What should I say. "Can I tell you something?" I say. What was I doing? I didn't mean to say that. "Yeah, sure what is it?" he responds. Oh no, what do I say? "Um, well I-" I try to come up with something. I tense up but Damien calms me down. He rests his hand on mine and says "It's ok, you can tell me anything,". I keep my hand under his and I take a deep breath. Maybe it's not too late? "I don't know what happened yesterday. When you came back to ask what I would of said I freaked out. I didn't know what to say. Now I found the words that I couldn't say yesterday. I do like you Damien. I really like you. Damien, I get butterflies when you laugh, I think you are the funniest person I've ever met. You are so caring and thoughtful. Damien, I'm so stupid that I didn't say anything before. I'm so stupid that you poured your heart out and all I gave you was um. Damien, I really, really like you and I'm so sorry that I'm so dumb that I never said anything,". I finish. Damien moves his hand to holding my hand and he says "Sam, don't call yourself stupid. You're not dumb and you don't have to be sorry." Damien says. I look up to him. We make eye contact for a few seconds before he eliminates the space between our lips. We stay like that for a few minutes. He places his hand on my face. I let go and I smile to myself. "I'm so glad I decided to get out of bed." Damien says. "Yeah, I mean the whole reason I couldn't sleep is because of you. I thought I messed everything up. I thought you wouldn't wanna talk to me anymore." I say. "Even if you still didn't like me I would never stop talking to you," Damien says. "I couldn't sleep because I was, I guess thinking about you." Damien says. All of a sudden my brain hits something. "Wait, Damien, its in our contract that we can't date. We'd get fired." I say. "You already wanna date, I see?" Damien says. I laugh. "But, yeah your absolutely right, Sam. I guess we secret date!" Damien says. I hold up my hand. "Secret dating!" we both say. "We probably shouldn't be saying that's so loud" Damien says, laughing and I nod. "Care to finally sleep?" Damien says standing up. He offers his hand for me to take. I gladly take his hand as we walk upstairs. We part when his room comes up. "Bye, Sam." Damien says. "Bye, Damien." I say, walking away letting go of his hand. I enter my room to find everyone still asleep, luckily we didn't wake up anyone, at least in this room. Unlike earlier I easily fall asleep, the only thing keeping me mildly awake is how will I be able to keep this from Courtney?
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Ohhhh Samien is real now!! How are they gonna keep this from everybody???
~Lucy💖

(JAN 11 2020)