back and forth (damien haas)

i cant trust anyone

"Sam can I ask you a stupid question?" Courtney asks. "Yeah sure," I say. "You promise you won't move out if I say this?" Courtney asks. "Most likely not, no," I say. "Well I better say it or I won't ever. Me and Wes made the stupidest decision ever 2 weeks ago. We thought it would be the best but we were totally wrong and you can hate me all you want but please don't hate Wes okay?" Courtney rambles. "Courtney your scaring me what's wrong?" I say. "WesandItoldMattRaubaboutyouandDamien!" Courtney says. "WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?" I yell. My heart takes over my brain. "I'm so sorry we never thought this would happen, we thought it would be best for you guys so you wouldn't get hurt," Courtney tries. "Your telling me my two best friends were the cause of the most depressing state of my entire life. Because you guys thought it would be easier." I say in quotation marks. "I'd rather him just dump me then this" Now tears are pouring down my face "You know when Damien and I officially broke up at his house last week he said the most heartbreaking thing I've ever heard? 'It's so hard being so in live with someone and knowing they love you so much too and to just be told no'." I say. "Please, Sam-". "Leave" I say. She gets up and shuts the door. I decide to call Damien. Damien immediately picks up, "Hey what's up Sam?" he asks. "Umm, are you in a private place?" I ask. "Yeah I'm in bed why?" Damien says, him saying that reminds me of our first kiss. He had his glasses on and pajamas, he looked so defeated, we both were. Until we kissed. We both were so happy, I will never forget that winter games, because it is still the best moment of my life. "I know who told on us," I say, he didn't seem very into the conversation until now. "Will it change my relationship with this person?" Damien asks. "People, actually and most likely," I say. "You know what, just tell me," He says. "Here it goes, Courtney and Wes." I say. He goes silent. "are you still there?" I ask. "Yeah, but am I hearing this right? Wes and Courtney?" Damien asks. "Yeah, i'm just as shocked, she told me it was because they thought it was best for us," I say. Damien sighs. "I don't know what to do right now," he says. "Yeah me either and she's living with me," I say. Damien sighs once again. "Damien can you stay on the call with me?" I ask. "Yes ofcourse," he responds. I lay my phone next to me on my bed and talk to Damien until we both fall asleep. This is the first time in 2 weeks I haven't cried myself to sleep.
the next morning ~
I wake up and almost forget about last night until I see Courtney's face. "Hi, Sam!" she says as though everything's fine, which it isn't. I don't respond. "Sam, please, you can't ignore me forever-" Courtney says. "Fine, your gonna have to make this up to me big time!" I say. "Don't worry, I will," Courtney says. We drive to work and head into the office. The entire day I try my best to ignore wes other then recording. "Hey, Sam wanna go to lunch with us?" Wes asks. I shake my head. He turns around leaves with everyone. I decide to go to the break room and grab a sandwich. I try to leave as quick as I can but the smosh squad walks in.
"Hey, Sam!" Olivia says. "Hi!" I say quickly and try to move past them. Courtney stops me, "Whats the rush? Come have lunch with us!" Courtney says. I glare at her I try walking forward again but Shayne stops me. "I'm going with Smosh Games!" I say. "No, they left 20 minutes ago," Fine, Miller, you got me. I reluctantly sit at a table with them and sit next to Noah and Olivia, across from Courtney. They all have crazy conversations and I occasionally talk up and make some jokes. Once I finish my salad I throw out the trash and leave as quick as I can before they can stop me.
Courts PoV
Sam shuffles out once she finishes her food, not slamming it like I thought she would.
"What's up with Sam, guys? Like i'm really worried about her!" Olivia asks. They all nod in agreement. "She's not as social as she was, Court did something happen?" Noah says and they all look at me. "I- uh she- it's" I try to think of something. "Court, you can tell us anything! We won't spread stuff about Sam," Shayne says. I sigh and confess, "Sam and Damien we're dating and I got really worried for Sam because she has had problems with relationships in the past so I was worried about her so, me and Wes made the stupidest decision to tell Matt Raub, we had no idea what would happen but, she's broken now. She doesn't talk to anyone she-" I confess. "Courtney- can you follow me," Ian says. They all give me looks of sadness and I follow Ian to his office. Sam is sitting down looking how she is these days, disappointed in the world. "Courtney you can't just be going around telling about Sam, the door was wide open and half the office heard you talking to the squad,". Sam isn't directly looking at me. She looks on the verge of tears. "I'm so sorry, Ian. I thought the door was closed!" I claim. "I don't think you should be apologizing to me, I think you should be apologizing to Sam. Not only did you tell most of the office but also one of head bosses at Defy Media was visiting and heard and Sam and Damien might be fired," Ian says. "Please, no Ian, can you do anything about it, fire me, not her, please" I say, my voice cracking. Sam is in her own world right now, Sam usually does this. She is clutching one knee on her seat while the other foot is planted is planted on the ground. "Unfortunately the only thing I can do right now is request for one to be fired instead of the other, the rest is up to the head in Defy." Ian says. I'm an asshole. First I break her heart then she might loose her dream job because of me. Sam has been dreaming of this forever, she deserves this way more then me. "They'll update me tomorrow, Sam,
I'm incredibly sorry." Ian says, getting up and giving her a hug, leaving me without one, not that I deserve it. "Sam, once Damien gets back from lunch can you bring him back in here?" she nods her head and we walk down the hallway. "Sam don't forgive me," I say. "Your wish is granted," Sam says, not looking at me and cold. She hurries up to her desk, the room is empty and she sits at her desk and I can see her sit there, wallowing in her misery. I walk over to the squad office room and try to ignore them. "Court what happened?" Olivia asked. I shake my head, "I'm such an asshole, apparently the door was open and half the office heard and a huge defy boss was here and heard and is threatening to fire Sam and Damien," I say and put my head in my hands. "Can't Ian stop them?" Noah asks. "No, all he can do is recommend who to fire!" I say. "Sams never gonna talk to me again!" I claim. I look over to the door and I see Damien and Sam walking in the direction of Ian's office. "There goes Sam taking Damien to get them fired!" I point to them walking past the door. "Shayne, I'm so sorry, it's all my fault," I say.
Sam's PoV
"Damien, can you come with me?" I say after about five minutes of them being back. "Yeah what's up?" Damien says as he walks out with me and closes the door. "Well, Ian has to talk to you and it's probably about as bad as the Matt Raub meeting," I say,
my voice cracking. "Am I breaking up with Ian?" Damien tried to joke. I slightly laugh and I open the door to Ian's office. "Hey, Ian," I say. I'm about to close the door but then Damien says. "Can you stay?" Damien asks. I nod my head and sit where I had just previously sat. Ian and me explain the situation. "This ain't fair for you guys at all, I will whole heartily try my best to get you guys out of this situation but I don't have much authority." Ian says. Damien takes my hand under the chairs again and squeezes hard. We leave and I go back to my desk. I have have an immediate idea when I look at Wes, but it will go against what I had promised Courtney last night but I think that it's okay.
a/n - sorry it's been so depressing, i'll try to make it a bit happier for a few chapters, no promises tho

(APR 10 2020)