back and forth (damien haas)

smosh games induction

It's been a week. I can't be myself anymore. I'm broken inside. I lost my one true love, I know we are meant to be. I know I sound crazy but, you have to be in my head to feel how I felt before and after. I was the happiest I had ever felt ever but now I'm in my most depressed state ever. I think everyone can tell but I this point I don't care. "We're gonna go film Sam, come on!"
Wes says. I reluctantly get up and follow the rest of them. Damien, Boze, and me are asked to wait behind the camera, oh. I know what we're doing. INDUCTION! God dang it if I have to do any fan fiction with Damien I'm going to refuse. Joven does a new people intro and introduces us.
"There are going to be two waves of induction, first Boze and Sam then Damien." Joven says. I ease up a little and am ready. "Boze and Sam, you guys are gonna read the worst possible comments we could find on you." Joven says. I sigh of relief, I can take this stuff really easy. I'll be cool. Boze reads her first one and I look down at mine. "Sam is just a more annoying version of Courtney" I say. I laugh, this is gonna be a breeze. The people around the circle defend me and then Boze goes. I look down to my next one. "Sam is such a cry baby she always loses and is just trying to be flitz in maricraft and she is worse than joven" I say. "Wow, I'm worse than Joven, that's really saying something." Joven pouts and Boze says her next one. I look down and this one hits me like a ton of bricks. "What happened to Sam, she used to be so cheerful and happy and know she's just depressed, sam are you okay?" I take a glance at Damien and he's not looking at me. I put on a fake smile and a fake laugh and have Boze read hers. "courtney's annoying friend should go back to wherever she came from, she not even funny and she's really uguly" Mari hugs me from behind and says "GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM, BIATCH!" I laugh, "Thanks Mari,". As Boze reads I glance at my next one, I pretend I don't see it and skip to the next one. "Sam is such a noob-" I try but they catch me. "Sam you skipped one!" Joven announces. Thanks, Joven. I sigh in defeat. "What happened to Sam and Damien? They acted like best friends, even like they were dating. For some reason they don't talk to each other at all at all did they break up?". I usher Boze to please get to her next one so can get out of here and be alone. Boze doesn't go to her next one and instead asks about it. "What's the problem, Sam?" Boze teases. I'm not going to hold this against her, she never knew. She didn't mean to hurt me. I didn't know what to say. "Yeah, Sam! What's the problem." Everyone chimes in except Wes. I look to Wes for help and he tries. "We should just move on guys." Wes says. Damien still is avoiding eye contact with me until everyone starts grilling both of us. Wes tries his best to calm everyone down but he isn't enough to stop everyone. Wes starts to get frustrated. "EVERYONE SHUT UP!" he yells. Everyone gets startled, even me. Wes quickly apologies and I put my head in my hands and try not to cry. This past week I've been way more prone to cry because of Damien. And now isn't the time. I suck up my tears and check my page. I have only one comment left. I skip Boze and say the comment. "Sam is a noob, she really sucks," with that I leave to my desk. I'm done with all of this and everyone. Damien of course hates me now and I look so suspicious.
Damien's PoV
I didn't want to look at Sam. I couldn't. Sam was my everything. I can't bear to look at her anymore. She tries to skip a comment but they catch her. She says the real one, "What happened to Sam and Damien? They acted like best friends, even like they were dating. For some reason they don't talk to each other at all at all did they break up?". Sam tries to get Boze to hurry up but everyone makes a big deal of her. Wes tried to help us out but everyone goes wild and Wes finally loses it. Everyone finally shuts up. Sam says her final nasty comment and runs out. I look around to Wes and he nods his head. I run after Sam and catch her sitting in her chair, crying in her knees. I slowly walk to my chair and sit down next to her. As soon as she realizes I'm there she immediately wipes her tears. "It's okay, Sam you can cry in front of me," I say and softly laugh. "Yeah, I know, it's just I- I don't wanna seem unprofessional," she says. "Did that comment really get to you?" I ask. "No. I'm fine" She says stone cold. "Well it really got to me, I didn't show it but it did," I say. "Really?" I look up to him.
meanwhile, back in the studio-
"Were we that mean?" Mari asks. Wes angrily says, "Yes you guys were,". "Since when do you know everything about Sam?" Boze asks. "That's not what I mean, I'm just sayings she's going through a lot right now and it wasn't very nice." Wes says. "Like what?" Mari asks. "It's personal," Wes responds. "I think I would know if Sam was going through something, she tells me everything," Boze says. Wes shakes his head. "If YOU know everything about Sam then what just happened," Wes asks. "She's just emotional, she doesn't take comments very well." Boze answers. Wes scoffs, "That's not true, she's strong. She takes that stuff really well!". Before Boze can respond Sam follows Damien back inside the studio. They seem fine.
Sam's PoV
Damien really helped me out. I'm glad that he followed me out. Boze and I record our outro and leave so Damien can do his Shaymien fan fiction. Boze and I walk back to the smosh games room but she sits next to me at Wes' desk. "Sam, there's nothing your keeping from me right?" She asks. I sigh. "Did Wes say anything," I ask her. "All he said was you went off because you were going through a lot right now." Boze said. "Boze can you tell me everything that happened while I was in here," Boze told me everything that Wes said and I felt terrible. I look around the room before speaking. "Actually there is something I have been keeping from you.."
I explain every detail to Boze, Winter games, how happy I was, what Matt Raub said to us. "So that's why Matt Raub wanted you guys?" she asked. I nod. "And why that question got to you? And Wes knew the entire time so really he was helping you guys, I thought he was being a jerk but we were the jerks," Boze says. "No, you guys weren't being jerks, it was just the piling of events that broke me. The emotions that I never knew I had, the comment, Damien not talking to me, and you guys grilling us," I say. Boze sighs. "Sam, if ever need someone I'm here," Boze says. I nod and the rest of the smosh crew walks in and Boze gives her seat back to Wes.
after work-
Courtney's PoV-
I can't live a lie to Sam. Whenever I say sorry she always says don't say sorry because it's not my fault but the truth is i'm why she has so much pain. It's my fault. I text Wes
me - hey, wes i'm gonna tell sam that I told on her and damien
Wesley - no say i came up with it
me - really?
Wesley - yes, i came up with it, it's okay court
me - are you sure, sam isn't good at forgiving
Wesley - i'll be okay
me - okay fine wes but be prepared
Wesley - ok, she had a rough day today
I sigh and plug in my phone into my bed and walk to her room. She answers, she looks as though she had been crying. "Come in, Court!". "Sam you don't have to put on a smile for me," I say. Sam just sits on her bed. "Can I just say what happened today?" she asks. "That's why i'm here," I say. "So today I had to do the smosh games induction and it was the worst. I had to read hats comments which I normally don't mind but 2 really hit me, one just said i'm more depressed then I used to be and the other said that it seemed like Damien and I broke up because we don't talk to each other as much as we used too." Sam says. "They all started commenting on the Damien one and Wes tried his best to shut them up and eventually they did now here where things go downhill, so I got super embarrassed and read my last one and ran out back to my desk and Damien found me," Sam says.
flashback -
"It's okay, Sam you can cry in front of me," I say and softly laugh. "Yeah, I know, it's just I- I don't wanna seem unprofessional," she says. "Did that comment really get to you?" I ask. "No. I'm fine" She says stone cold. "Well it really got to me, I didn't show it but it did," I say. "Really?" she looks up at me.
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"Yeah it really did," Damien said. "Because I don't want it to look like we aren't friends anymore, but I also don't wanna be just friends, but we can't be you know?" Damien says. Sam doesn't make eye contact with him, "You don't have to remind me," Sam says. Damien takes his hand to lift up her head to face him. Damien gets up and closes the blinds on the door. He takes a look at the hallway and sits back down. He takes her face once again but this time leaning in. He kisses her and before she can pull away he deepens the kiss. Sam never wanted to pull away. She missed this and him even though it had only been 2 weeks. They stay like this for about 10 minutes. Luckily, no one caught them.
back to now-
"Why was that bad, don't you miss him?" I ask. "Yeah but, ok let me explain. So at first I felt really happy but then I realized that it wasn't the right move to kiss him because I miss him even more now, It's like having a huge cake right in front of you and you only get a fork full of cake and you just have to sit there forever but you can't have any of it, if I didn't have that fork full it would have been a bit better, but since I had that fork full I know what it tastes like and I want more," Sam says. All I can do is nod my head because she's not going to want to hear what i'm about to tell her because it's gonna add onto her horrible day.
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(APR 08 2020)