back and forth (damien haas)

smosh summer games part one

okay so since nothing interesting happens until ssg i thought I'd spare you of the 2 filler chapters I was gonna put out so sam's gonna tell you what's happened as she rides to ssg!!😊
Also i'm gonna try to post longer chapters for you guys😁
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Damien and I have 'made up' and by that I mean we're the same old Sam and Damien when the cameras on but off we are barely friends. That's only because we had to have a meeting where people at Defy got mad that we aren't 'turning it on for the camera' which I think is absurd. So, me and Damien have to play it up for the camera and I know the smosh games crew are genuinely worried about us. To be honest I miss him so fucking much. I really do, but since he told Mari about Lucy, everyone has been asking about her. They wanna meet her soon. How this makes me feel? I want to vomit. How is Damien so moved on? I thought he said we were technically still together. This is mainly why I don't wanna talk to him anymore, he's just so.. okay. Which am not mentally okay at all. It hurts really bad to know someone you loved with all your fucking heart and you THOUGHT reciprocated that really didn't, he's just so okay with moving on. It is exhausting trying to not start balling when anyone mentions the name Lucy. It's so hard to not be able to talk to anyone about this because I think one day I'm gonna actually explode. All these thoughts and emotions are too overwhelming. I guess Damien is that good at acting. The bus finally stops at a ralph's so some people get out to grab some food but I want to stay in the bus. I have to move out of the way so Olivia, Joven, and Courtney can get out. Damien stays in as well, sitting in front of me. I press play on my playlist and lean my head back. I look out the window, we're super close to the place and I'm super excited. It almost takes my mind of my emotional pain until Damien starts to talk to me.
"Sam can we talk?" he asks. I take out a headphone and pause.
"Why now?" I say sighing. Damien looks into my eyes longingly.
"I just want us to be cool, we never talk anymore." Damien says. He drapes his arm over the back of his seat, twisting to face me.
"What do you mean by cool?" I say coldly. alDamien sighs.
"I miss you, romantically and friendly, Sam. But for now just friendly." he says. I hold back tears. He missed me? but the Lucy girl, he said they were in love.
"What about Lucy?" I ask, holding back tears and look down at the floor of the car. Damien takes my cheek and lifts my head up.
"Sam, Lucy is you! I told them how I felt about you and slapped a random name on it, it's always been you." Damien says. I glance around to make sure the gang isn't back yet, they aren't. I lean forward and give him a small but passionate kiss on his lips. He smiles, we're good again. I look back and see the gang start to walk out of the store. I shoo him to turn around and I pluck in another head phone and press play, a love song comes on and I smile to myself, it's meant to be. They hop back in the car and me and Damien pretend we never talked. I just lightly smiled to myself as I replayed my encounter with Damien over and over in my head, all my old sad thought about Damien were pushed to the back of my brain, the kind to laugh at now.
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skip to when we get there
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I get out, searching for Damien. I spot Damien waiting, bag in hand, talking to Shayne and Noah. I decide to leave him alone, it would be weird if out of no where Damien and I started talking again, we have to go gradual. Instead I sneak up on Boze and scare her. She freaks out and chases me around before they start the vlog where we walk around the camp.
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rooms -
sam + boze + mari
damien + shayne
noah + keith
wes + joven
courtney + olivia
lasercorn + flitz + ian

I go to bed dreaming of the day that Damien and I can be together freely, without it being illegal.
——— day two
Ian's pov
I feel so terrible for Lucy.
flashback to the car yesterday
We all laughed at Shayne as he told us what had happened with Olivia.
"So then Olivia came up to me and whispered she wants to fuck you!" We all laughed a lot until Mari pointed something out.
"Um, guys do you see that?" Mari points at the second car, it's parked next to the sidewalk and I peer through the window. Sam and Damien just kissed. Oh no.
"You guys realize that Damien is in a relationship, right?" Mari says.
"He is? Never mentioned her to me." Shayne says.
"Yeah he's told us about her, right?" Mari looks to the smosh games crew. They all nod and blurt out some yes and yeahs except Wes.
"Damien's cheating on Lucy with Sam? I never thought he'd do that!" Joven says.
"Hey, guys lets not jump to conclusions, just forget about it." Wes says, trying to calm us down. They all to agree to drop it for now but all I can think about is, do I tell in them or risk getting in trouble with Defy?
back to day two.
I decide to pretend I never saw them kiss. I never did.
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sorry guys😢

(MAY 18 2020)