Jack and The Cuckoo Clock Heart Preferences

His Feelings: Jack

I'm in danger.

I'm at risk of dying at the hands of my best friend and she doesn't even know it. As far as she's concerned my heart aches and burns at the thought of Miss Acacia but she couldn't be more mistaken. Death is not something I'd like to experience right now seeing as I just discovered these new amazing, albeit frightening emotions.

I can see Madeleine's certificate of death for me now.

Name: Jack Malzieu
Cause of death: Suicide by overwhelming emotion.

No, I couldn't do that to Madeleine or Y/N. If I wanted to live long enough to see any kind of future with Y/N, I'd have to upgrade or replace my heart some kind of way. Surely, Madeleine was able to do it but she's ask questions and if she found out that Y/N was the root of my heartaches, she'd refuse to let me see her.

I can't imagine not being able to see Y/N. She was the only one that made the bleak and dreary hell that was school into something fun and enjoyable. Y/N made me forget about any strife I suffered in that dark place. Not only that but she made me feel normal and safe. Her affection came openly and warm. It's embarrassing but I recall almost letting my lips touch hers when she gave me a hug. I moved quickly and let my lips rest on her rosy, supple cheek. I remember how my veins felt as if electricity coursed through them. It was amazing.

The burning and aching of my heart seem to be worth it whenever we're together. She has since forgiven me for my statement regarding her isolation in love and I couldn't be more thankful but I want to fix it. I want to step up but I can't do that without putting myself in grave danger.

This is tearing up my heart and mind and what's killing me is that I can't say a thing without ruining everything. I must do something.