"When you have to go through EVERYTHING, to get that EVERYTHING."
It's so hard to be someone when you're confused about who or what you're. Tarun is never 'Who' he thought he would be. He has a secret which he is claimed of hiding from everyone. Nei...
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What I just did? I really don't know why I broke down like that in front of him. I never cry like that. That was such an ugly cry. I didn't cry when my dad died. Okay, that was a lie. I did cry. But not in front of mom or my brother or anyone. I cried silently locking myself inside the room. While I'm bathing. Even now and then, I cry, standing in the shower. Because there I don't have to wash my face, it's tears or water, I never got to know. I don't know what Abhimanyu will think about me now. When I saw him enter here, I just couldn't control it. I clung around him tightly. I wanted that comfort. I wanted him. And he was here.
He saw my vulnerable side. Is that a bad thing? I hope not. But I never wanted him to see that.
I don't want him to think I'm weak.
I didn't ask him about the Sana thing or if that is true or not. Maybe they dated when Abhimanyu use to go to school here. Worse, maybe they were in a long-distance relationship thing, and now they are together again. But then he wouldn't be inviting me to go somewhere with him. But I don't want to imagine them together.
I'm jealous. I'm not the jealous type. And Abhimanyu said again that we will talk. Do I want to go somewhere with him? Yes and no.
I try not to think about it much otherwise it'll mess with my mind. I change into my sports gear, which was here inside the locker only. I lied. Abhimanyu didn't ask me about it. Thank god. I tie up my shoe's lace and got up to go to the ground.
I see Abhimanyu crossing the parking lot. He is talking to someone on the phone. But the call ended pretty soon. But a few seconds later, Sana walks up to him. I'm clinging my teeth tight. So they are together. If Abhimanyu thinks he can start something with me, while in a relationship with her, he can fuck off.
No, I don't want that. He just got here recently and in my life.
He doesn't know, how his girlfriend was fooling around behind his back when he was not here.
She puts a hand on his shoulder. They are talking. I don't want to know what they are talking about. I cross them through the parking lot like I didn't actually saw them. From the corner of my eyes, I see Him glaring at me.
I'm not disturbing you. Talk as much as you can.
I reach the ground. Everyone is still doing warming up before the exercise. Girls are at the other area of the ground. I see Mahima and Anna.
Anna waves at me. I wave back. Whereas Mahima mouths, and signal to ask me 'all okay?'. I smile and give a thumbs-up, coming to stand where all the boys are.
I don't see Graham, standing in the group, he is running down the hundred-meter race. I don't want to run, because that will be exhausting and my life is already. So, I join the boys who were doing crunches.
I lay down on the grass field, it's so soft, and folded my knees in front of me. Leaving no gap between both of my legs and hands behind my head, crossing both the fingers. Few seconds past, but I didn't move. My mind floats to somewhere else, remembering when I was with my dad, alone, we went to this ice cream parlour...
