Life without Gus: some infinities end

Chapter 12

*Hazels P.O.V.*

I was having so much fun on our date i totally forgot I was going to break up with him. The dinner and now staring at him in the moonlight sitting on these rocks over the lake, I don't know if I still want to end it.

Hazel! Stop doubting yourself! You made a decision and that's that!

Ugh. I'm right again. I guess I should just spit it out before I rethink things again.

"I have to tell you something" me and Jake said at the same time.

"You go first." Jake said smiling.

"Okay, well Jake this isn't going to be easy for me but um.....I'm.....Im breaking up with you. It's not because I don't like you or because your moving, but I don't think I'm ready for a relationship, or worse a long distance relationship." I finally spit out.

Jake looked down then back up at the sky.

"Hazel. I'm ....I'm not moving." He said.

"WAIT WHAT?" I screamed.

"I told my mom I'm staying.....for you." He frowned.

"Oh Jake. I-I don't know what to say." I said standing up just as he did.

"You don't have to say anything." He said getting into his car and slamming the door.

I got into the passenger seat and the whole ride back to the apartments we said nothing, not hi, not bye, nothing, not one word. I honestly felt really bad and was contemplating taking back what I said. But I don't think he is going to take me back after I just broke his heart like that.

I couldn't bare to see him like this, he looked like he was about to burst into tears. Now that he wasn't moving that changes everything, I know I said that wasn't the reason why I broke up with him, but now that I think about it, I was afraid of getting hurt and-

"Are you gonna get out?" He said standing outside of the car.

I noticed we had been sitting in the apartment Parking lot for a while then I jumped up and got out of the car.

"Sorry." I said.

"About what?" He said flatly.

"Everything." I said stopping right in front of him so he couldn't move.

"Whatever." He said looking away. I could tell I just smashed his heart into a million pieces.

"Jake I shouldn't have done that. I was scared....of....of getting hurt again." I said as my eyes started to well up with tears.

He looked at me then sighed.
"Hazel I understand why you would brake up with me, but after that amazing night, that didn't change your mind?" He asked.

"Actually I was having a internal battle with myself about braking up with you the whole time we were looking at the stars." I looked into his eyes.

"So what are you saying?" He said looking back into my eyes.

"I'm saying....do you forgive me?" I said worried about what his answer would be.

His frown then turned into a smile and he leaned in, closer and closer. My heart was now beating outside of my chest.

"I forgive you." He said right before I felt his lips interlock with mine.

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Okay guys in the chapter after the next one you will be finding out if Hazel has cancer or not!!!! Stay tuned for the dramatic ending! I think I'm going to try and make this 20 chapters but I might not be able to drag it out that long. I'm sad this book is comming to a end but I'm moving on to other books. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and will enjoy the chapter/s to come!! :)