Peepeepoopoo
Today was a day for me
Like, I had so many realisations today it's crazy.
1) I realised my mom is a Karen. Like, she legit doesn't believe in vaccines and thinks crystals and shit will do the job better and that vaccines cause problems. I'm just here hoping I don't get rabies and die.
2) Life was not made for people to be happy, it was made for like one guy who wanted everyone and everything to be different and now only he's or she's of they're happy while the rest of us losers are stuck here waiting to die and then probably go nowhere. I just don't believe in an afterlife but if you do, what makes you think you'll want to stay there forever. Just asking, like, in a friendly way, not a sarcastic/ mean way. Because I don't know about you but I want a d v e n t u r e and c h a n g e and c h a l l a n g e in my everyday life, and if I live in a world where everything's perfect and nothing bad ever happens, how am I gonna appreciate the good things in life. Although, this problem could easily be solved if you just think of it as everyone's heaven is different and if I want all the stuff I want, then imma get it because that's how I'm going to Be truly happy. But what if the only way I can really be happy Is if I learn that I can't just get everything I want, and when I get to heaven I think my worst fears have come to life but actually it's all good, and like I previously said the only way I can be happy is by learning that lesson and I don't know. But what if none of that's true and I think it'll be true because I'm in denial and AAAAAAAA ITS A LOOP.
This was a wild ride m8.
But I still got more. I just forgot em all.
Oh well. Maybe I'll make another chapter dedicated to my weird thoughts.
Aaannnd goodbye frems.
Sincerely, an existential motherfucker.💚💛
