heres^ the drwing øf strawberrysnowcone uwu the drawing of me is on my art book
warning, vent ahead
ok now vent:
i want to fucking kill myself
i swear to god i was trying to upload some pictures to wattpad but it just wouldnt work
i dont know why but this just might be the one for me. this might be that last straw, i sweartogodimgonnado something either to my belongings or myself and i really hope its the second one because my parents dont have the money to get me a new ben again or repaint my walls again but its very easy to just hide other things. my mom was just saying how good i was doing with not pulling out my hair anymore or cutting i really dont want to let her down but everythigs shitty and im not doing anything to help like an asshole. my mom keeps telling me to talk to her and be with my family but how do i do that when i cant even think a full thought without wating to kill myself. i have so many things i want to do. but i cant because im stuck here in a routine, and when im not im in my own thoughts too sad to want to do anything anymore. and i hate how i look buti cant do anything about it or even secretly make a fake binder again because of corona virus and my mom threw the old one out and the actual ones dont fit and she thinks im 'over the whole 'trans' thing' and i just want to be talked to like a normal person who has control over what they do but then again im here writing about how i want to kill myself so obviously not. i keep not talking back to people when really i just dont want to tell them how i feel and i have nothing else to talk about because all i can think of is how shitty i am and how i should die.
sorry for not being here.
