Fates Decision~

Really important. Crying.

I will update this story soon, but I'm crying rn. I'm so upset.

Well, anyone who knows me knows I love SDS with all my heart. It was introduced to me by someone I love more than anyone. Or shall I say....loved.

I read the recent manga chapter, and got pretty upset. Not at myself or anything. The plot story itself. No spoilers, you'll have to read it yourself.

Now, as soon as I read it, my instinct was to go to this person, and obviously they hadnt mentioned SDS in a while. Which was weird. Me and him had been having plenty of arguments recently. Hes also the reason my relationship of 1 year broke off on the 1 year anniversary, but I still trusted him. Oh what a fucking fool I was.

So after I told him the new chapter came out. He called SDS the shittiest thing alive. I thought he was joking, bc he was the one who introduced me to it. He wasn't, and this isn't the worst part.

He said exactly this:

"sds is shit, honestly the worst anime ever, i fucking hate it, any sds fan should burn"

The thing that hurts is that I first pretended to like this series, then grew to love it, and now it's my favourite.

Another funny thing is that he knows I have some issues in my life, and knows I can't take it when people tell me to go and die and stuff, because I do take it to heart and think about it. Normally, I don't write stuff like this, but I need help. He was the one I told everything to. I trusted him. He waa my world. I ditched my ex for him. Only for him to continue playing.

But I cannot leave him. I cannot. It's like kind of manipulation mechanism which works on people like me. I can never say no, I always give in. It's super hard.

I'm sorry I bothered you guys. I hope you have a safe holiday, I just really needed some advice. I now have nobody, because he was one of my only friends. That was the only reason I stuck with him.

Thanks for listening. :)

PS: Updates coming for each of my stories soon. Ily all, take care.