Everything is Red

Chapter 24 - It's a Date!

With a grumble Wade slammed the window closed, shaking his head and walking towards the front door. On his way to the front door, he placed his phone on the coffee table that was still pushed away from the pull out bed. I hope he gets back to me quickly. He's only been gone for a few minutes but it feels like I haven't seen him in months. 

Wade stood in the doorway for a moment contemplating the strange feeling of really honestly missing someone. Closing the door slowly until the click told him it was fully closed he turned back to the empty apartment and glanced at the areas his friend had just been. The plate from his breakfast still sat on the table with unfinished food adorning it, the sheets in Wade's bed still tossed to the side and Wade's jacket still laying on the ground where Peter had dropped it trying to get out of the apartment. This wasn't the first time Wade had felt this feeling of loneliness when Peter left, the first year they spent together as actual friends Wade had noticed that he would often find himself becoming quite anxious when they needed to part ways.  Anxiously waiting for the next moment they would get to speak again, the next time Wade would honestly get to laugh again.

Wade walked around the apartment as he began putting things away and throwing out the uneaten food, his thoughts drifting in different directions as he completed his tasks. Always being known for being the class clown had it's downsides in that even when Wade wasn't necessarily happy he would feel the need to act like he was.  Making it hard for Wade to understand or grasp his own feelings.  This was one of the many reasons why Wade loved spending time with Peter because when he was around him there was no need to force anything.  Wade could be angry, sad, and even honestly happy in front of him, this was the close friendship he had always been looking for all his life. The companion so to speak he had been desperately searching for.  This friendship between him and Peter meant more to him than words could express.

And so this is the reason we aren't busting a move on this man?

Correction, this is exactly the reason we never will, I am not even sure what these feelings are.  I've never felt this way about anyone before and how am I supposed to know I am not just confusing what friendship feels like with romance?

Well for one I'm pretty sure friends don't usually want to fuck each other.

I've always had a strong sex drive. Wade tried desperately to explain away the feeling he had last night.

For men?

He's got you there.

While it was true he had never felt truly attracted to another man before that didn't necessarily mean that he was sexually attracted to Peter. It had been quite a while since Wade had a hook up with someone, maybe that was it? Wade was sexually frustrated, he knew that the things he felt last night weren't all in his head but they just couldn't be feelings for his friend.  Anything made more sense then that because if that was the truth then Wade was certain to lose his friend in the end.

Who are you trying to convince right now?

Because it's definitely not us, we are you and we know exactly how you actually feel about him.  So stop with all the BS and stop lying to yourself.

Shut up! I refuse to lose him, especially over something like me falling in love with him. I can't go through this again.

Ah, there you go finally being truthful with yourself for once!

Wade groaned throwing his head back onto the couch he was now sitting on and covering his eyes with one hand, holding his head in place as he closed his eyes. Wade wasn't stupid he knew how he felt about Peter, he'd known for a long time now.  Pretty much the first day he met him officially.   Wade fell hard, which earnestly surprised even him he never knew that he could fall for someone so easily.