THE BADBOY NEXT DOOR (completed)

Heart Of The Bad Boy. Pt 5

Jake's POV

I sway from side to side as the ambulance drives over another bump. Glaring at the JD who sits opposite me holding his head his in his hands, a constant grimace on his face. He looked pained. Regretful. And he should be.

I hold Kim in my arms as she sobs. I did this. I'm the reason why she is crying. I'm the reason her daughter is unconscious. I'm the reason why we could lose Aliya today. As much as I try to put the blame on the JD and as much as I want to kill him right now, I know that deep down this is all my fault. She ran across the road to see ME.

However, that doesn't mean I don't hate the JD any less for what he did to my sunshine. I continue to glare at him.

"Look!" He snaps finally looking up at me. "You don't think I feel terrible about this?! I never meant to hurt her! I've said I'm sorry, what more do you want me to do?" He sighs exasperated.

"Get on your knees and die." I say flatly without any remorse. He stares at me blankly for a few seconds and then sighs and looks towards Aliya shaking his head. There she lies, with a bloodied face, a first aid nurse by her side the whole time. Even like this she's still beautiful. I can't bare to look at her for more than a few seconds before my heart begins to shatter all over again.

My entire world is demolished. It's like someone has come and ripped out all of my insides, put them in a bender and then shoved it all back inside of me. My hope, my desperation that she'll be okay is dying. As each second passes that she doesn't wake up, the darker my life becomes.

If she never wakes up I won't forgive myself. This girl, she's changing my life and she doesn't even know it. Everyday I spend with her makes all the bad ones vanish. I feel like...like a good person when I'm with her. She helps me to be the person I want to be. I need her.

I bite back tears. No. Kim can't see me cry. I've already taken enough away from her today the least I can do is be there for her right now. Because better than anyone right now I know how she's feeling, life without Aliya...it could never be the same.

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Kim eventually leaves the room, drying her bloodshot eyes. She looks at me with a small smile. I don't quite know what to say to her to make things better. I open my mouth and then shut it before going to open it again. I'm lost for words. How can I comfort her when I'm the reason her only daughter ran in front of a car?

Before I can think of something to say she embraces me tightly. I freeze before eventually digging her back.

"It's not your fault," is all she whispers before pulling away and gives me a pained smile. I nod my head and look down at the floor.

She brings her hand up to my cheek and lifts my face to look at her. She say nothing but her eyes hold a thousand words. I nod and smile back half heartedly. She walks away and I head into Aliya's room. I grab the handle shakily.

"She loves you. You know that right?" She turns around to say as she's leaving.

I freeze in place. Aliya? Loves me? No. That's impossible. I mean yes it's obvious she feels more for me than a friend would but...love? She could never love me. Not after everything bad I've ever done to her. Everyone who I love always gets hurt in some way.

I simply turn around to Kim and reply, "She deserves better than me."

I head inside before Kim can say anything back.

There she lies, the moonlight filtering in from the window light's up her pale face, creating this soft glow from her cheeks. She's gorgeous. She's never not. Her features are soft and delicate and her golden hair is featured gently around her head. She's unmoving, completely oblivious to the world.

She's in a coma.

A stinking coma.

I take a seat beside her bed quietly.

"You know, hospital gowns are quite a sexy look on you doll face," I smirk, almost expecting to hear a groan of annoyance form her followed by one of her cute little giggles. But she just lies there.

"I just..."I pause trying to find the right words to say. I'm not even sure why I'm speaking at all, it's not like she can hear anything I say anyways, but I just need to say this once and for all.
"I guess I know how you feel now," I chuckle softly. "I know how it feels to have the person you love most hit by a car because of you. It's not exactly what I'd call fun," I whisper looking down at the ground.

"I thought I had it all finally figured out you know. For once in my life I decided to actually let myself get what I wanted. I had it all planned out. I thought that maybe something in my life would actually work out for once," I half sob. I regain my composure before continuing.

"Remember how that night at our windows, I said that it was time for me to give you back your diary, and all you had to do was one more thing for me?" I take a deep breath, biting back my sorrow. "I was going to take you to my house in the forest, where we had dinner that one time, and I had this little speech written out and...yes I know it sounds cheesy and I'm even embarrassed saying all this now but I thought that cause you're such a dork you'd be into it or something," I ramble.

"But, by the end of it all, when you'd be crying because of how beautiful my speech was and also cause you always cry, I was going to get down on one knee." I pause yet again and a hot tear pours down my face.

"And I was going to ask you to be my girlfriend," I choke out.

"But clearly whenever I decide to let myself be happy the universe just comes and destroys any hopes I ever had of achieving that. I just want you to be okay Aliya. I NEED you to be okay. You have to wake up, not just for me, but for your mom, your friends, heck even Chase! You need to be okay Aliya because we all need you. I need you. Without you I'm nothing. You make me the person I want to be and with you like this, I don't want to face the fact that I'm just a bad person," I say, tears streaming down my face.

"I love you Aliya," I breath, staring at her beautiful motionless face, my heart ripping into a thousand pieces all ay once. "So much."

And with that I get up and leave the room.

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Author's Note:
Hey my gorgeous coffee beans, sorry for the wait, good things ahead so stay tuned!!