I don't think you can ever get over losing a parent but I thought I was doing better I mean its been nine months since I lost my mom and I thought I was doing better. I had great friends there for me when I needed them. I have the best boyfriend a girl could ask for. Just these past coupe days I have been missing my mom and I can't help but wish she was still here.
I haven't really talked to Quinn about it. He has been focusing on hockey he should have to worry about me.
"Hey babe, some of the guys and girls are going bowling you want to go?" Quinn walked in the living. I looked up at him and saw that he was already dressed to to but I didn't want to move from my spot on the couch.
"No I am not feeling so well I think I am just going to stay in today." I tell him hoping he can't tell I'm lying.
"Whats wrong? Do you need to go to the doctor?" He sits next to me about to check my head to see if I had a fever but I backed away before he could.
"No I will,l be fine. I'm just going to rest. You go have fun." I pull up the blanket that was laying across my legs.
"Are you sure I don't have to go. I can stay here and take care of you." I can see that he is worried about me.
"No no go on I am just going to sleep most of the day anyway."
"Okay well if you need me just call me I will have my ringer on if you need anything." I smiled at him and thanked me while he was walking out the door.
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"Oh come on Y/N we haven't seen you in ac couple months why not fly out here and spend some time with family." My sister started once again trying to get my to go home. I normally fly home every three months or so but I can't go back since my mom passed away. I couldn't be back there without her.
"I can't I have some things I have to do here and some events I'm going with Quinn." In truth I had, nothing going on. There were no events I had to go to with Quinn. "I have to go Quinn just got home from practice." We said our goodbyes and hung up.
I heard the front door open and saw Quinn walk through the door.
"Hello beautiful," He walked over to me with a big smile on his face.
"Whats got you in a good mood?" I ask while he kissed me on the cheek.
"Well I got, a surprise for you." I heard the front door open again. I turned and saw Jack.
Since Quinn and I started dating. I have grown close to Jack. He has been a little brother to me and a great friend.
"What are you doing here?" I ask not getting up from my sit. I looked at the Hughes brothers.
"I know you have been feeling down a little lately Y/N I thought since We are about to play each other and he had a couple days off before the game he could come here and hang out."
"Well I don't want to hang out I don't want to see anyone. Maybe next time you will ask." I got up from where I was sitting and went to mine and Quinn's room and shut the door.
I went straight to the bed and sat down put my head in my hands and just broke down. All I wanted was my mom and she wasn't here. I can't call her when I need someone to talk to. She's not here when Quinn and I getting into a fight I want to call her and get her advise. When I want to tell her about something that just happened I can't because she isn't here.
There was a knock at the door. It opened slowly and I saw Quinn's head poke in. He stepped in and closed the door behind him. "Y/N what's going on?" I got on his knees in from on me and took my hands in his. "You haven't been yourself. I'm not the only one to notice it either. Your sister call me the other day and asked how you were doing. You haven't been home in months. Just now with Jack, normally when you see him you run right up to him but this time you don't do anything." I felt tears still coming from my eyes. "Its okay not to be okay. If you are missing your mom then its okay I'm here for you. If you want to talk about her then we can talk about her all day long. If you want to hear her name or anything about her then I won't say a word but I'm here for you. Don't close yourself off from everyone that cares about you."
"I just miss her so much Quinn, She was supposed to been here when I get married one day. She was suppose to be here when I have kids. She is suppose to be here when I'm so mad at you that I have to talk to someone." Quinn got up from the ground and sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"When we get married one day we will leave a chair open just for her. We will tell our kids about their grandmother and how amazing she was. You can call my mom when we fight because you know she is always on your side about everything. She is watching over you Y/N and looking out for you everyday. If you want to sit in a room and talk to her then you can do that."
I pulled away from Quinn a bit but not to where I was out of his arms. "I don't deserve you."
"You deserve so much and I love you so much." He kissed me on the top of my head.
"I'm sorry for not being myself lately."
"You don't need to say sorry." I put my head on his chest. "I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I'm not going anywhere."
